Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Statistics no more

I've decided not to double in statistics. This makes my schedule about 10x better even though I am not taking very many units now. But wow, I feel like my stress level has gone down by about 5 levels and the past few days, I've been kind of sitting around doing nothing. Uh oh. I realized I actually have some reading to do but I haven't done anything today except socialize with people and my brain can't really quiet down and sit down to do work. Anyway, yay! No more statistics. I talked to my friend today who gave me a lot of good business insight and made me realize that statistics is really not that important in the business world, especially for an auditor. So yay. I'm glad. I don't think I'll regret this in two years, which is what I really worry about. I just like to live life without regretting anything, and I think I can say that I don't have any real regrets. Only the constant "I shouldn't have eaten that" but nothing significant. I feel like I just escaped something that could have been potentially harmful to the rest of my college years.

On another note, I just ate half a bag of peanut M&Ms and I'm starting to break out already. I hate you! Cleverly packaged bag of candy that looks so delicious.

I'm EXTREMELY excited for March 14th when I go down to LA for my club. Basically, my club is paying for the flights, the shuttle that will be taking us from school to the airport (SHUTTLE! NO LAME BART RIDE), the really nice hotel we'll be staying at, AND $64 of meals PER DAY. Not only that, but for two days the hotel will be providing us food so it's like $64 PER MEAL. I'm insanely excited. It feels like I'm going to a business trip, which it kind of is. A business trip SLASH sleepover because we're sharing rooms. And I'm using the company credit card... HEHEHE. Awesomeness. My friend said we can go to Sushi House when we get back Sunday night and pool in all our money together and basically buy about $192 worth of sushi. OMG. I cannot wait. How many times in your life can you eat whatever the hell you want with absolutely no care about whose money you're spending? Not very often, I say.

I realized that RCSA is freaking awesome if you're really involved with it. There are many reasons, but the time I began to realize it was over winter break when Owen and Eric mentioned something about how they wish they could go to an event where people served them food on platters. And I realized about 10 seconds later, after the conversation had already moved onto something else, that I have been to several events for my club where people run around and serve you. Actual caterers who give you little finger foods and drinks! You can also experience this when you go to company info sessions - I remember KPMG had pretty good food. Unless you're super rich and go to nice events, this doesn't happen very often, if ever, in life.

Ok. I'm really happy now. Partly because of my super relaxing schedule. Partly because I talked to people today. But ... as always I must complain.

MUST GET SUPER THIN BY MARCH 14th!

Monday, January 28, 2008

So I was sitting in math class...

How my math discussion went today:

10:08 - The girl next to me asks if I knew how to do one of the homework problems. That's when I find out for a fact what I have been suspecting: that I have the wrong textbook. The problems and the chapters are off, which means I did the wrong homework, even though a few of the problems are the correct ones. I tell her I have the wrong book, and while I did try doing the problem she's asking about, I did not actually complete it.
10:10 - Class begins. I am reminded of my dislike of GSIs with accents. And my stronger dislike for GSIs with accents who are shy and speak very softly. Boris, my foreign GSI, you seem very nice and the sort of person who enjoys visiting your grandma and knitting a quilt with her or whatever, but learning math from you is not helping at all.
10:15 - We get split up into groups. I immediately tell my two partners that I have absolutely no idea what's going on in the class, so I probably won't be any help
10:17 - While the other two students are working out the problems, I realize that even though I spent about five hours on math yesterday, I still don't know anything about trig substitution or whatever we're doing. And then I start thinking about what classes I WOULD take if I weren't going to double in statistics and how my schedule would change, and whether I really honestly think I could survive this class. I come to the conclusion that no, I will not survive this class.
11:00 - I delightfully stick earbuds into my ears and speedwalk out of class, deciding not to think about this class again. Until it meets again on Wednesday.

Basically, at the end of discussion, I was 100% certain that I would not be returning to Math1B. I pretty much decided that I was not going to double in statistics. Sometime in my business class, I had the idea of maybe minoring in Chinese, but I doubt that would ever happen. But now that a few hours have passed and math class is just a vague thought, I'm back to the "if I just study very hard, I'm sure I can do it" mode of thought.

So ... I really don't know.

Pros of majoring in statistics:
- I like knowing what classes I have to take, and if I don't double major in something, I'm going to end up taking a bunch of random classes which is kind of useless and stresses me out
- I like saying to people "I'm majoring in business administration with a concentration on accounting and I'm also doubling in statistics." It sounds very definite and self-assured, and it has a little ring to it.
- I don't have to worry about finding new classes to take, which I'm not even sure if I can do if I didn't go to the first day of class
- I'm sure a double major never hurt anyone before
- My probability textbook will not go to waste
- My schedule is all nice and blocky

Cons of majoring in statistics:
- I think in a week, I might start crying in math classes and discussions. No lie.
- I'm not even sure I really like statistics. I just got a really good grade in Stats21, which is admittedly not very hard
- I think I might have just majored in statistics because I really liked my stats GSI. Which is probably the worst idea ever
- I don't want to have to buy another math book that is essentially the same thing that I already have, just numbered differently
- Have I mentioned how I don't know a THING about integrals? And this is supposed to be the easier part of the course

ARGH. If I had known in freshman year that I would want to major in statistics, I would have taken math1b second semester freshman year, math 1b would be a breeze, I could have taken stats 21 the next year, and gone on with my merry way. NOOO instead I had to wait A YEAR so that I completely forgot everything and have to pick up from scratch.

How I decided to take statistics:
1) Decided to apply to Haas
2) Haas has a prerequisite of Statistics 21
3) Took statistics 21 spring semester freshman year
4) Really liked statistics GSI. Went to office hours a lot and just did homework there
5) Homework and test grades went really well because I went to office hours so much
6) Got an A+ in the class
7) Figured that statistics was kind of fun
8) Signed up for film studies 50
9) Thought that film studies 50 was going to be cancelled
10) Dropped out of the class and looked for new classes to take instead
11) Decided that I should find a second major so my classes would be more structured
12) Decided to double major in statistics

I think there are several flaws to my logic of doubling in statistics. The main one: because I thought I wouldn't be taking my film studies class. In the end, I did.

ARGH!!! STILL don't know what to do. It's also an hour later. I want to nap. And throw up the lasagna I just ate.

Well stupid blogger won't let me post because they're doing site maintenance. So I will write more. I'm flipping through my statistics book and it looks very daunting. But then again, if you never knew about a subject and flipped through the textbook, you'd be totally WTF but once you start learning, you're like "oh this is actually not that bad."

I don't know. That is the theme of this post. I don't know. I'm really a firm believer that if you just study, you'll do well, as long as the teacher is a fair grader. And if that's true, there should be no reason for me to not take math, because I have no problem with putting effort into school. I guess I just don't know if I really think it's worth it, and it just seems very impossible right now. Which is really weird because I've never felt this way about a class. ARGH. I'm very lucky to have gone through almost 14 years of school and never had to think "there's absolutely no way I can do well in this class, no matter how hard I try." Until now I guess.

Friday, January 25, 2008

School has begun. End life

Wow, so while it was winter break, I would have to resist posting 3x a day, but now that it's schooltime, suddenly it's 5 days after my last post and I haven't even thought of blogging. School has felt very hectic. I don't know why people told me to go to SD on the first week, because if it were me, I would be way too stressed out to have friends over. There's readers to buy and classes to find and homework to do in a very short amount of time. I'm used to doing all my homework on the weekend and doing nothing during the week, but the first week of a semester is always "AHHH must do things before TOMORROW!" which is kind of insane.

It has been fun so far. I play wii with my floormates and it is awesome. I never improve though, so you wouldn't even know that I play when I go back to Arcadia. I went to the gym today with some floormates which was oddly fun. We all did different things and just met up after we finished. I usually hate going to the gym with others because they always do the same thing right next to me. Afterwards, we just went to the second level and sat on the stretching mats and ended up talking. Mainly me about Arcadia and the bizarreness that is our school.

I also have been rewatching Alias with Alvin and sometimes Chrystal. Watching Alias with these two is a lot less fun because Chrystal is very critical whereas Alvin knows so much random facts that he can pick apart the inconsistencies and falsities of the show. Example:

Show: Rambaldi did this in the Americas in the 1400s
Alvin: UHHH YOU MEAN BEFORE THEY EVEN KNEW THE AMERICAS EXISTED?

Alvin slept over in the dorm yesterday and even though I was already asleep by the time he went to sleep, it was super fun. I wish I could have more sleepovers. I need friends who can sleepover at my place.

Impressions of my classes:

Math1B: WHATTT THE FUCKKK. I am seriously going to fail this class unless I sit down and read a semester's worth of math in a weekend. Because this class is supposed to be a continuation of Math1A, and you take it right after so there's only a month of break in between the material. Instead, I took math1A my FRESHMAN fall semester and I have absolutely no idea how to do calculus anymore. Not only that, but people who take this class are generally engineers and are intent on doing a crapload of heavy math courses. So, this is a freaking tough weeder class, and I'm taking it as a unknowledgable sophomore. I have never truly been scared of taking a class, but when I saw on the syllabus that 2% get lower than C's, it was the first time I was like "omfg I am going to be in that 2%"

Stat 134: I did not realize you needed a year of calculus as a prereq for the class. He put up five introductory questions, of which I only knew ONE. He basically said "if you aren't comfortable doing this, you should get out of this course." I have the stupid notion that as long as you study hard for a math class, there's no reason why you can't get an A. We'll see how that works out come May

GWS: My women studies class. I kind of want to drop it because I realized that there are a few words I never want to have to read about in a class. They are
- transnational
- postcolonial
- globalization

After my class about California and the World, I was like OMFG I HATE any article that uses these words because I just want to rip my eyes out. But I don't want to drop this class because then it'll ruin my perfectly blocked schedule.

Film 50: Omg the second the professor started talking, I could tell this is probably going to be the best class I ever take at Berkeley. Which is saying a lot, seeing as how I've already taken Astro10 with probably the most highly recommended professor on campus. We have 3 hour lectures on Wednesday, which is when we watch the chosen film, and then 1 1/2 hour discussion on Fridays. I've never heard of any of the films, except Memento which is shown at the very end. They're all fairly old movies, a few of which were made in the NINETEENTH century. It is awesome to know that OUR OWN library has these materials in possession, which our teacher can use to show in class. It sounds really nerdy of me, but the one fact that has stuck with me over the years is that we have the 3rd largest library in the nation, after Yale's and the Library of Congress.

Most of the films shown are on 35mm. Oh yeah, our lecture takes place in a THEATER on campus. Not a shabby little room with a projector but an actual THEATER where someone lowers and raises the lights and we have theater-like seating that is elevated. We actually get printed TICKETS when we enter the classroom. And then the GSI will rip off the stub for you. AWESOME? AWESOME.

Also, the professor obviously knows what she's talking about, and within 20 minutes of her talking, I already felt myself become more appreciative of movies and filmmaking. I want Frances L to come up just so she can go to one of the lectures. *__* seriously

UGBA 101B: This is an upper-level macroeconomics class. I'm pretty confident about my choice of business as my major because I honestly think the material is interesting. It's weird because this class is taken by Haas people mainly, and I could feel a totally different atmosphere within the room. You feel it whenever you enter the Haas building too. It's like ... a feeling of confidence and security, and like everyone knows what they are doing. Maybe I'm just projecting, but I think it's true.

IEOR: This is a "leadership" class, like how to be a good leader. There were a few things that my professor has already done that I really hate in a teacher:
- has a quiz after the first reading. Professors who do this are trying to claim that the class is to be taken seriously and yes, you absolutely must do all the reading. Usually, it turns out that the professor is extremely easy and is just trying to prove something that they aren't.
- wastes paper. She gaves us a giant envelope full of papers printed with things that didn't take up much space. Ok, for the project at hand, it was much more useful and would have been a lot more stressful if she hadn't wasted so much paper, but it still pissed me off
- talks for 4x longer than she has to. There's really no need to clarify things SO fucking CLEARLY.

Ok. Wow, I have been talking to Danny for a long time. I guess this is one of those fabled times when "Danny suddenly talks a lot, when you don't expect him to." I heart you friends

Edit: Dude. I talked to Danny for over an hour straight. Well over an hour. It was like ... non-stop conversation. Danny's such a mystery

Monday, January 21, 2008

And the new year begins

I'm going to the airport now. I still have no idea how I managed to fit a month of clothing into one tiny duffel and a J Crew bag. I hope they let me carry-on both. I will be clutching the J crew bag with my life, because it contains all of my beloved outerwear. I expect to be delayed because it's cloudy in SoCal and rainy in NorCal and it's also a holiday.

So it's actually the NEW YEAR for me today, not 1/1 because I figure I'm not going to follow through with resolutions in the middle of break. So I'm starting today! Plans: go to meeting, play wii, go to gym, eat little, sleep early, all between the hours of 6:00-1:00. General plans: lose weight, eat less, study hard

See you friends for spring break

Friday, January 18, 2008

30 Rock Tells the FUTURE

So I was rewatching an episode of 30 Rock out of boredom and I noticed something that I found 50% hilarious and 50% freakishly true.

Scene: Jack, (Alec Baldwin) is ultra-Republican and he finds out that he just slept with an ultra-Democrat (Edie Falco) when he watches the morning news

I just happened to look up at the scene and noticed the rolling headlines. They're obviously fake so I was like "hmm I wonder what they decided to write." There was stuff like "mysterious visitor from future wins lottery again" and "Anne Heche leaves husband for pony" but I caught one that says:

"News crawl affected by writers strike ... using repeat text from previous season"

HAHA nice

I have managed to stay relatively calm about the writer's strike because there are miraculously still new episodes of Friday Night Lights playing, and 4 more episodes of Cashmere Mafia. And when THAT runs out, its carbon copy Lipstick Jungle will begin playing on NBC. And when THAT runs out and I really, really cannot stand the lack of tv, I'm going to tune into American Idol and Survivor. Actually, NO. I am going to read books for fun. Gain some knowledge of the world.

The trailer for 27 Dresses looks stupid. I didn't laugh once in the trailer. BUT THEN the NEW trailer with quotes from reviews came out and it's stuff like "best thing in years!" and "hilarious!" and now I can feel myself getting tricked. NO! I also don't want to watch Cloverfield but ... I think a lot of other people do.

OH MY GOD! I missed the first 15 minutes of Friday Night Lights (seriously what is up with my sense of time on Fridays at 9:00pm?) and it's ALREADY UP! It's 10:55!!! OMGGGGG HULU IS SO FUCKING AWESOME



Edit: I actually wrote this at like 11:00pm last night but then I went out to watch a movie and my freaking mom TURNED OFF the computer. We watched 27 Dresses and I thought it was pretty good. Then again, if you remember from before, I thought the trailer was extremely shitty, so I had low expectations. But, if you hated Izzy from Grey's and thought you wouldn't be able to stand her in a movie, WRONG! Katherine Heigl is an awesome actress and she makes you love her.

Chocolatey Delight

I'm eating out of a bag of cereal right now because there's not really anything to eat for lunch in my house. I went to Costco with my dad but I didn't want a chicken bake. I think he got pissy so I have to "handle lunch on my own." Well, I'm too lazy to cook and I can't work Chinese magic like my mom and whip up some magnificent shit using the ingredients in the refrigerator, so I'm eating a bag of cereal. It was a 3 pack from Costco which included regular Special K (disgusting), Vanilla Almond (decent) and Chocolatey Delight. I finished the Vanilla Almond a long time ago.

The Chocolatey Delight is like ... regular special K coated with an extra layer of sugar, with little bits of chocolate thrown in. I don't get who this caters to. Isn't special K the "diet cereal?" Is it really that crucial for some dieting lady to get her chocolate one way or another? Does there really have to be candy thrown into an already sugary meal?

It doesn't taste very good with milk. Chocolate is not going to get soggy in milk and it kind of eludes the spoon, so I end up with a bunch of little chocolate to eat at the end. It IS however, oddly delicious when you eat it dry. Take a handful of cereal with one bit of chocolate, and it's suddenly the perfect amount.

With that said, my throat kind of hurts from all the sugar I just consumed and I'm oddly full yet still dissatisfied with my meal. IF I WERE IN BERKELEY, THIS WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN A PROBLEM. I would just have eaten a yogurt parfait, damnit.

Next year I think I'll just go back to Berkeley after the third week of vacation

I will never procrastinate again

I'm slowly accomplishing all the things I should have done at the beginning of break. I'm taking care of all this club stuff (shotglass/mug design and order, e-mails, blah blah blah) but the more I do, the more sad I feel because I keep thinking "I COULD HAVE DONE THIS WEEKS AGO!"

I didn't bring my laptop home so I kind of just used that as an excuse for why I couldn't get things done. In the end though, I just had people e-mail me some information. The more I do, the more I realize how EASY all this work is. If I had just done it EARLY I would have saved myself a lot of stress. Plus, one of my tasks involves ordering things and I had set a goal to have the things ready for pickup by the time school started, which is NOT happening. I don't even know if I can order it before the weekend. ARGH! I really effing hate myself. FUCK ME for procrastinating.

I hope I take this lesson to heart and actually NEVER EVER procrastinate again. I went from feeling really stressed out to just feeling really guilty and terrible about myself. I don't know if anyone will really really care that I didn't get this done immediately, but I still feel really bad about it. AGH! I need to like ... print this entry out and tape it to my table, so every time I open a game of minesweeper or pick up a new tv show to watch, I remember this feeling of self letdown and guilt.

HATE. MYSELF.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Home is where my leftover possessions are

I actually had a few important things to do today, that I haven't done at all. My dad leaves for work at 1, so I have this general "I'm not going to do shit until 1:00" feeling. From the moment I wake up to the time he leaves, I sit and look at websites, never moving from my chair, while he showers me with cut fruit. Not good. But today is the last day! Tomorrow, friends come home for the weekend and after that, I'm BACK AT SCHOOL!

Where I have to:
- take care of club stuff
- take care of asuc stuff
- go to the gym
- shrink stomach by eating less
- look for picture cds, upload selected photos onto costco.com, have mom print them
- be friendly
- submit fafsa. FAFSA?!
- decide which class to drop because NO I am NOT taking 6 classes in a semester where I'm working, working out, and trying to make friends

STRESS-STRESS-STRESS. Yet I continue to sit here, debating whether I should rewatch ALL three seasons of Lost or just the 3rd season.

Anyway, what I ended up doing today was going to the bank to deposit a $500 check from my parents (free money! delightful) and going through old photos on my computer. I might have mentioned this before, but there are a bunch of pictures on this home computer that I never burned onto a photo cd. It's bizarre, because they're not "the best pictures" or "the most recent pictures." They're just ... miscellaneous photos that didn't qualify for its own album, and were kind of just left here when I transferred all my files onto my laptop and headed off to Berkeley.

So when I come home, there's always a moment where I'm bored but too lazy to get off the computer, so I go through the photos. It's only been two years, but I already feel older looking at them. Clothing and hairstyles have changed, and for me at least, the inner-TMV groups have slightly changed.

Take a look, but I don't think they'll mean much unless you were in the memory. It's weird because two years ago, I would think most of these pictures would be unprintable but now I'm like "wow ... I would totally frame that picture." Does anyone even use webshots besides me? I don't like flickr very much, especially because I think my phototaking abilities are an insult to the flickr community, which takes perfectly focused shots of grass and random people.

More in depth look at the pictures because there was another point I wanted to make in this blog but I can't remember it at all:

1) Taken during Pow Wow class: Sometimes I remember how shitty of a copy editor I was in yearbook and I'm really embarrassed. I didn't do anything in that class, because no one wanted to bother going through a copy editor before running in proofs. For me, I was like YES I can sit around and do nothing, and as the year went on, this was just cemented. I hope in the future I'm more proactive about things and make a better contribution to groups I join, instead of waiting for someone to delegate tasks to me (which I know I still do)

Also, WEIRD. I remember skipping classes with Alvin to eat at Souplantation during lunch. And I recently was reminded of the time Alvin stole a pack of club veg membership forms and had random people fill them out, because Souplantation said they'd pay me a nickel or a dime for each one I had someone fill out. Alvin was a really good best guy friend but I don't think we're best friends anymore which is sometimes sad to think about, but at least we're still friends.

AND HAHA CHRYSTAL. My college roommate of two years. Life is sometimes really weird in bringing people together.

2) I can't believe there was a time when I could angle my head like that and NOT get double/triple chins. Looking at some high school photos makes me really sad because then I realize how thin I once was, but didn't know it at the time. MUST. LOSE WEIGHT!

3) Jackie looks nothing like what she does now. But Danny's house hasn't really changed

4) Now I really want to go to the beach again with friends. TMV doesn't do anything at the beach. I wonder what people in other parts of the country would say. We live in SoCal, known for its beaches, and all we do is go, stare at the water, and then go shopping. One day, we're going to go there, EVERYONE will play in the water, and we'll have a nice game of volleyball or football, before breaking out some delicious food to roast over the firepit. ONE DAY.

5) I can't remember the last time we wore capris or shorts.

6) Sometimes, the picture is better than anything I can say

7) We actually rarely play Smash anymore, I think. If I were rich, I think I would buy Danny a PS3. Um.. never mind. I just looked at it on Amazon and realized it cost $500. I thought it was $200 and I was going to buy it for him as a thank you for the infinite number of times he's driven us, but ... $500 >> $200

8) I remember calling Stephanie and asking where Jackie was, and she told me her toe was ACTUALLY broken. And I had like a massive panic attack. It was a weird moment

9) Those don't look like real legs

10) Jackie, I hope you don't get sad by this picture. I think it's interesting to remember old times.

*I'm skipping pictures! Don't get confused*

16) I think I have a pretty negative view of males in general, but all the guy friends I've ever known are always extremely nice, respectful, giving, ... I honestly think that whoever they marry are pretty lucky people. Which is why sometimes I meet some guys and I'm like WHOA who the hell raised this jackass? It's really bizarre sometimes. Although I think I should also work on knowing people better, instead of passing judgment too quickly.

*Skipping again! Sometimes there's no point in writing about a picture for the third time*

18) I really want to dress up again. After I lose weight. But OMG. Dressing up is actually really fun. I want to curl my hair like that again, except I'm really too lazy to keep it up

22) I'm 100% not lying about this caption. I really don't remember hanging out with only Danny, Connie Y and Jackie. I don't remember at all what we used to talk about. Which is a shame, because I really wonder what Danny used to talk about.

23) I actually really do miss birthday cakes. It's like ... showing that you care about the person, you've remembered their birthday and preordered a cake, you're eating it with many of your close friends, and when you look at a picture with a cake in it, there's instant memories of celebration. Birthdays are happy times because generally, everyone's on their best behavior and if you did things well, there's ONE person who will remember the day as theirs. I think once I was like "it would be kind of cool if my friends mailed me a birthday cake" but thinking about it, it would be a very sweet gesture but how depressing would it be when you're eating that cake alone in your kitchen?

26) I love how Henry and I actually went through and tallied up the number of times everyone appeared in a picture. I actually kind of remember that day. It was weird because I think by the end of school, I had already started the "I'm annoyed at Henry at all seconds of the day" phase but we still decided to do the yearbook ad together anyway. And then he showed up at my door after track practice, I think, and I criticized all these little things about the ad. One thing that particularly sticks out is how we disagreed over whether there should be a period at the end of sentence, and if it HAD to be there, whether it should be a different color and we argued over it for a fairly long time and then I relented. I still notice the period. HAHA I think it turned out well but I also think one day we'll look at it and be like WOW that looks really poorly photoshopped.

That's all. I enjoy those rare moments when I actually remember something.

*Right after publishing the post, I remembered what else I wanted to say. I wanted to say why I love everyone in TMV and how appreciative I am (especially after they bought a freaking camera for me) but this post is long enough :) *

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

If only it didn't suck

I'm watching Cashmere Mafia right now and as much as I want to like it, it's really REALLY hard to. There are so many ridiculous, illogical things in the show, and there are so many stupid lines. I keep holding out for a good episode because almost no show starts off strong. The people in the show are good actors and everyone is likable, which makes me wish the show wouldn't be so crappy. They all seem so nice! Let them act. I say it's the fault of the writers, the clothing stylists, and the music supervisors.

One of the points of the show, which will probably be repeated over and over again, is how hot, sexy women get away with more mistakes than men. I think it's supposed to be like "look how unfair the business world is when we sexualize/objectify women" and inspire more equality or something. My reaction is sadly more of a "omg I really need to learn how to slut myself up while remaining somewhat classy, so I can get ahead in the world."

AND AGHHH there's a scene with Bonnie Somerville right now and all I can stare at is how her giant ass earring is pulling on her earlobe. I feel like her ear is about to rip in half any second. Can't ... look away.

OMG AHHHHH It's 20 minutes later and now Miranda Otto is only in her underwear and AHHH RIBS EVERYWHERE. She breathed in and suddenly I was staring at this enclave in her body.

I'd probably have more to say if I weren't distracted with actual AIM conversations. Chatting with people makes blogging seem a lot less interesting.

I'm starting to feel STRESSED. Sometimes I hate being a club officer. I don't enjoy responsibility.

To do tomorrow: Go through all e-mails, read, shop with Erica, write down banned foods, make a super unbreakable diet plan

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Something to watch in a day

I swear, there's always a good television show to watch. Even for someone like me, who seems to watch everything already. In the summer, I wanted to kill myself but I kept finding new shows (Brothers and Sisters, Friday Night Lights, How I Met Your Mother). Sunday and Monday were deathly boring days. If presented with the possibility of going back to school right now, I think I might take it. Tuesday was more of the same internet browsing and minesweeping, only I picked up on a new show at nighttime.

Kitchen Confidential!


I do remember hearing good reviews and angry WTFs when the show was not renewed. There are several familiar faces (Bradley Cooper of Alias, Nicholas Brendon of Buffy, and John Cho of assorted stupid movies) and I know there are awesome guest stars coming my way (Michael Vartan). This show is PERFECT because they only have 13 episodes, which I can easily watch in a day or two (as proven by my 30 rock marathon only a few months ago) BUT I won't be wasting homework time on it because there are no more episodes tempting me in the future.

Process of finding Kitchen Confidential: Being really bored, wanting to get a haircut, wondering what hairstyle I would want, browsing through pictures of random Hollywood girls, going to abc.com for pictures of Emily Vancamp, getting distracted by a picture of Bonnie Somerville, reading an interview of hers where she was promoting Kitchen Confidential, searching for Kitchen Confidential episodes, finding all 13 episodes on hulu.com, jaw dropping as I realized ALL full episodes were online FREE, celebrating, and watching with glee.

I love hulu. I wish all shows were posted here.

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HOW AWESOME. IS THAT? You can CHOOSE the clip you want to start it on. HOW. SEXY.

Indicator of my boredom

I was so bored today that when one of my floormates said he will be bringing his Wii to school for 2nd semester, I almost shit myself. OMFG. I actually am so excited that I feel like I can't sleep. I'm too excited. I'll just end up lying in bed, imagining myself playing tennis (and losing horribly). BUT OMG. 2nd semester is going to be AWESOME. WII! WII! WII!!!

aznwalmartgurl8: what will you do until school starts?
nsaYnemothballs: umm probably nothing
nsaYnemothballs: wii-ing
nsaYnemothballs: igot a carrying case so i can bring it to the dorm yay
nsaYnemothballs: more distractions
aznwalmartgurl8: OMGGG
aznwalmartgurl8: ARE YO USEROUSSSFDKJSDKLFSDJFLSFD
aznwalmartgurl8: CAN I PLAY
aznwalmartgurl8: OMGGGG
aznwalmartgurl8: DO YOU HAVE TENNIS
nsaYnemothballs: yes
nsaYnemothballs: i do
aznwalmartgurl8: OMGGG
aznwalmartgurl8: LET ME PLAYYYY

In exactly one week I will be getting ready for the first day of a new semester. Time to list some lofty goals:
- Get straight A's in my classes (NOT A-'s unless the class is just ridiculous)
- Actually get the classes that I've been waitlisted for
- Befriend more people on my floor. Like the impenetrable white swim team
- Get together with people I already know more
- Be more proactive for my club
- Exercise a shitload (swim/elliptical/AB EXERCISES)
- Eat less (mmm yogurt parfait I want you NOW. Ice cream, you are my sworn enemy)
- Work and earn lots of money

Monday, January 14, 2008

Day with the mother

*as I'm leaving the Super A parking lot, which is about 6 streets away from my house*
Me: Wait, are the regular lights on or the high beams?
Mom: I don't know... those are the regular lights
Me: No, there are no lights ... I think that's just the dashboard lights
Mom: No see those are the regular lights
Me: Can you go out and see if my lights are on then?
Mom: Yes they are
*exits parking lot*
Me: I can't believe I had my high beams on the whole time! How embarrassing
Mom: Oh don't worry about it
Me: But people will get angry at me
Mom: It's ok
*driving past 2nd ave, I start to weave because I can't see the lanes*
Mom: AH!
Me: I can't see the lanes! It's not my fault!
Mom: Drive slower!
*stopping at 1st ave, I make a very fast stop*
Me: I couldn't see where the line was! It's not my fault!
Mom: You drive so quickly. At least we made it home safely
Me: We're not home yet
*pulling into driveway*
Mom: Wait, how come the lights aren't on? OH MY GOD we've been driving without lights this entire time! No wonder you couldn't see the lanes
Me: THIS IS YOUR FAULT. I ASKED YOU TO CHECK IF THE LIGHTS WERE ON

Why I HATE break

11:00 - Wake up from somewhat scary dream of being trapped by a king who keeps me locked in a room along with another girl. Kind of reminds me of Saw. Sad because I have to train myself to wake up around 8:00 by the time the week is over
11:15 - Turn on computer. Eat slice of banana bread. Begin looking for music to download while intermittently playing games of Minesweeper and refreshing the televisionwithoutpity.com website
12:40 - Eat apple. Continue music downloading, minesweeper, and web browsing
1:00 - Shut down Limewire. Update iPod
1:10 - Get up to eat another slice of banana bread
1:25 - Mom returns from work early. We decide that neither of us actually wants to eat lunch
1:27 - Stare at fafsa website. Realize that I'm not sure how to reapply, even though I did it last year.
1:28 - Copy my class schedule for next semester on an index card
1:30 - Decide to color in index card with pencil
1:45 - Eat another apple
2:00 - Draw on Chrystal's graffiti wall
2:20 - Decide to make horribly boring blog to chart my horribly boring day

I can't believe it's ONLY 2:40. Oh my god. I don't even have television to watch. At all.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

My mom is surprisingly observant

My mom was watching 60 minutes and they interviewed Mark Zuckerberg. He's actually pretty hot. In a cute, awkward looking $3billion dollar guy kind of way. Anyway, afterwards, she wanted to look up someone on facebook, but then she got distracted by my own profile and insisted that she look at my pictures


Me: NO. You cannot look at them
Mom: WHY. ARE THERE NAKED PICTURES?
Me: WHAT?! NO! WHY would there be naked pictures?!
Mom: Then show me them

Quite the crafty lady.


Mom: Let me try to guess their names. Ok. This one is Melissa.
*I burst out laughing*
Mom: Why are you laughing so hard? I got it right. This one is ... I can't remember her name. She goes to Cornell...
Me: No she doesn't but you're close.
Mom: Ok, she goes to ... something West. Eastnorth- erm westnorth ... Northwestern.
Me: Yes
Mom: She lives on 3rd avenue ... I'll try someone else. That one is Connie
Me: No it's not
Mom: Oh, that's Jackie Tong (she pronounces it Dong for some reason). That is Frances Chen. That is Danny.
*she proceeds to get them all right, going Danny > Frances L > Eric > Connie L > Henry > Alvin > Connie Y > Owen*
Me: Who's that?
Mom: That's the boy you danced with. Um ...
Me: He goes out with Frances Chen
Mom: I know that. But I do not know his name... Give me a hint. What is the first letter?
Me: That's too easy. What about her?
Mom: I can't remember. You saw her when we went to New York ... give me a hint
Me: Fine. R
Mom: REGINA!
Me: And that one has four letters
Mom: Eric! No...
Me: It starts with a W
Mom: Will!

So I'm actually extremely surprised that she remembers everyone, and although she didn't remember Regina or Will's name, she knew a lot about them, actually. Although, 10 seconds later I showed her a new picture and she got confused.


Mom: Who's that? That must be Frances' boyfriend. But that's not Will! WHO IS THAT BOY?!
Me: That's Will
*mom whips off her glasses and puts her face about 1 inch from the screen*
Mom: Oh yes ... it is.

Don't worry Frances C. I told her that you did not tell your parents so she cannot mention it if she ever sees them. HAHA She said she liked Henry the most, and I assumed she would say it was because he seemed very helpful and knew how to cook, but I asked why and she said it's because he speaks Chinese to her. I guess my white friend Caroline has no hope of winning her affections.

Did you know you can upload photos onto Costco.com and then order them online, and within an hour you can pick them up at a warehouse (or have them mailed). HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! OMG I am going to start printing pictures. I'm feeling a bit nostalgic


This is actually kind of weird because we don't look all that different, but I've seen a lot of pictures where I'm like "WHOAAA he/she used to look like THAT?!"

Friday, January 11, 2008

Things I'd want in my future home

The title is really what this post is about but something more important came up in the 20 seconds after I decided to write a new post.

I FUCKING MISSED FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS.

There are SO FEW shows now that actually have new episodes running, and the programming schedule is completely messed up and the last new episodes are almost never the intended mid-season finales, so I can't tell if there are new episodes coming up or not. Which is why I effing missed Friday Night Lights today. I realized this at 10:20, and the episode would have started at 9pm. ARGH. Ok, yes, I only have to wait until tomorrow morning to watch it, but STILL. WHY was I browsing the internet when there was TV to be watched?! *throws shoe at tv*

Anyway. So I'm back from a week at UCSD. Sunday until Friday. It was fun, but I'm happy to be home and I now realize that stays over 3-4 days are overextended. My eyes hurt because I spent a lot of the break just watching shows online and then playing this beyond addicting game. I finally beat it after about two days of playing. The congratulations screen was not all that rewarding, but I'll take what I can get. I want to find more online games to play. Minesweeper is growing old. Although I'm not sure if getting into games is the best route for the beginning of the new semester.

Oh dang. I realized that I didn't do my monthly "20 Things" at the beginning of January. Although, I haven't ever done it on the first day of the month, so whatever.

I like this song. The video is not great but I'm sure most people will end up watching it anyway. I enjoy quick montages of images when it's well-done (ie. not too fast and ending with some horribly stupid catchphrase that flashes) but they don't even go to the rhythm of the song. Match the song to the pictures when you make a video!

Did you try reading that while simultaneously trying to watch the video? And then did you keep getting distracted by the images of Kristen Bell and Jason Dohring? I know you did.

Ok. Is that enough random thoughts? Most people's posts seem to be about this long, but I haven't even cracked the surface of mine yet.

I went out with Eric, Jackie and Alvin and now it's 3:18am and I will no longer begin this post of "things I'd want in my future home." You guys are all dying to find out, huh? Maybe tomorrow. Tomorrow I will go to the library and see if I can salvage the remains of my brain.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Things I'm Doing at UCSD

- Not exercising
- Eating a lot of cheese
- I like to play Minesweeper on people's computers and get the high scores because ... I'm weird and most people don't play their minesweeper anyway. I came and I already had high scores on Connie's from last year. But the expert level was like 271 seconds and I was like "NO! I could do so much better!" so the entire night I kept playing it. I was pretty anti-social I guess. I also went to Danny's, which was very nice of him and he was like "I'll take care of you meltang" when Connie left for class. His internet didn't work (ARGH!) so I couldn't continue my episode of Friday Night Lights. So I just played on his minesweeper with his EVIL MOUSE that was very hard to click and probably gave me early carpal tunnel. He was going to nap but he decided to read and Connie got very angry because we were supposed to bring over cooking oil and he was like "I'm almost done. Just this one chapter" but 40 minutes passed and I was still playing minesweeper and he was still reading. HEHE.
- Listening to Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love. I had to watch youtube music videos to listen to music yesterday, since that was the only way I could listen to music. The music video oddly made me like the song more, even though it's not a great video. I did not know that she was black. Also, the first time I heard this song I thought the words were "I keep breathing, I keep keep breathing love" and that it was a very happy song. It is not.
- Playing with Sami the cat. Eek! Cats are fun. But I don't think I'd want to own one. I wouldn't want a needy boyfriend, but I would want a needy pet, and cats make me feel insecure about myself because I'm always like "why don't you want to come to me? Am I ugly?"

Dina came in and was like "meltang? Wait you're not meltang" but I just didn't have my glasses on. She thought I was Frances L. I will take this as a huge compliment and maybe I am not the big ball of obesity as I am inclined to think

Fatness. Seriously

OMFGGG I'm INSANELY fat right now and I'm not even joking at all. Ok, I never really joke about this, but usually "I'm fat" is either "I'm still not as thin as I'd like to be" or "I think I was thinner yesterday" whereas TODAY it's like "OMG people are going to walk by me on the street and think to themselves 'look at that asian Kristie Alley.'" I have Connie's ID card and I HAD my gym clothes on but I did not go to the gym because I don't think I could get back by 11:00, especially because I actually have no idea where the gym is and I'm pretty sure I will get lost.

I'm thinking about how I've only exercised ONCE this entire winter break, and I haven't ever exercised since the new year. What a terrible start to the year. I'm going to start off the year being a big tub of lard.

Also, now I think I eat a ton because when I stay at Connie's apartment, I realize that I eat a ton more than they do. I seem to be constantly hungry. No wonder all that exercise didn't do very much.

I don't even know how to set diet goals for myself because I doubt I can actually fulfill them while I'm visiting colleges.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Just how big is this storm?

I'm in UCSD right now wearing really wet jeans and waiting to shower. My period came at a rather unfortunate time because I wanted to start exercising and I also have to sleep on people's couches for the next week. But I guess this makes me less sad about my monstrously large stomach.

Connie L and I just went to Frances' apartment and talked for a long time. I felt kind of tired the whole day because of the sleep debt I've been building, but talking about past memories is rather exciting. Although, we could hear Connie Y downstairs laughing and when she came up she said WE were loud. I guess even if UCSD apartments look really nice, they're still equally non-soundproof.

Visiting Connie L in college always makes me extremely eager to live on my own. She and her roommates always decorate their place to make it seem very lived in, with a lot of personality. They also cook very well and seem quite independent, which makes me think about how I would live. Their places also smell very nice. I think Frances uses the same Febreeze that Chrystal and I have, only their place is so large that it actually smells nice, whereas when you spray it in my room, it hurts to smell because it's so concentrated.

This will be the first time in a long time I've gone to bed earlier than ... 4 am. Eek! I should have brought a book to read. And sneakers to exercise in. Boo. Shower time!

Happy Birthday Frances

Wow I can't believe it but winter break is over for most people, which means that it's time for me to visit colleges. I'm happy that I have people who enjoy me enough to let me stay with them. Otherwise, I'm not quite sure what I'd be doing. I'm waiting for webshots to finish uploading my pics, and not only is it slow, but it makes my computer extremely laggy. It can't even process what I type instantaneously. Anyway, I'm very tired and I have to wake up early (earlier than I've been waking lately, at least) to leave for SD. As of now, I wake up around 11am, 3 hours later than I'm used to in college. I'm also sporting a significantly larger stomach and eating more than usual. So, even though my winter break has not ended, I will begin what I should have begun long ago. A DIET REGIMEN.

I'm also incredibly low on cash right now. I might have spent well over $200 since December 20th which was not too long ago. I just can't stop spending money.

Firsts of the day:
1) Driving in the rain. Oddly, it was pouring, POURING, when Alvin drove me back to get my car, but at some point, it just suddenly stopped. So it wasn't too bad, but Alvin was really nice and followed behind me all the way back home to make sure nothing happened. Hearts for Alvin.

2) Parking in a public parking lot without my parents. I think? Well, I ended up running over the same curb. Twice. I don't really feel all that embarrassed inside but I keep remembering how I looked behind me and people were laughing their asses off at me. Tears for me.

3) TMV person goes past the #teens! So bizarre. And already, two years before it even occurs, our intended 21st combined birthday bash in Vegas is breaking apart because Eric will be studying abroad at the time. Tears for us all.

Friday, January 4, 2008

Memories, please STAY in my head

Additional quotes:
Me (about Eric helping Regina buy Owen's gift): Wow I guess guys really do know how buy for each other
Eric: Yeah. Borders? YOU'RE IN THE WRONG PLACE.

Frances L: I think if one of the guys turned out to be gay, the girls wouldn't care at all
Eric: What if one of you girls turned out to be a lesbian?
Guys: THAT WOULD BE AWESOME.

It's freaking 4:51 am right now and I came home ready to sleep but sometime between the changing into pajamas and brushing of teeth, I realized that I have to blog NOW or I will lose out on a lot of awesome blogging moments.

So today was TMV dinner. It was the first dinner with all 12 of us, PLUS an additional Alvin, whose house we actually used. So many play areas in that house. A real dining room with enough space for everyone to eat without having to maneuver elbows, a living room with clean floors to sit on and chat in large groups, a giant kitchen for the boys to cook delicious foods in, and a tv room with an awesome couch for chats to last until very early morning.

I'll just skip the day's events to the actual arriving at Alvin's house. Some girls (me, Jackie, Frances and Frances) arrived at Alvin's 5 minutes earlier than they told us to. We decided to sneak up from the back door, because then we could surprise them. Instead, we started amusing ourselves for what must have been 10-15 minutes of just watching the boys "frantically" cook and finish a dinner that was scheduled for an hour and a half ago. Frances Chen has a wonderful video of it on her camcorder that we forgot to watch. Let's just say it was wonderfully entertaining, especially because the boys did things we could have all expected. Namely:

Henry steadfastly cooking, not letting anything distract him
Alvin randomly coming in to perform judo moves before running off
Owen and Will were not really seen, I believe because they were finishing off sushi in the separate kitchen
Eric walking around, helping out at random places and sometimes just chilling
and our hands down favorite...

Danny who was given the sole task of cleaning out crystal glasses for use. He sat and just wiped the glasses with paper towels on a bar stool. Eric sometimes came over to check up on his progress. It was so amusing to watch because you could imagine how he ended up with the task that involves absolutely no contact with food.

Other great observations we made:
The TV that was on and playing some music CD that I guessed correctly was Eric's. What we did not know was that they had listened to it five times through and now hated it.
A fireplace that was just really cute to imagine someone turning it on with the thought of the girls in mind, but in reality, was probably Owen just fiddling with some buttons for the hell of it

We called Danny to tell the boys we were coming in "one minute," but the effect of his announcement "Guys, they're coming in one minute" didn't have much of an effect. In fact, none of the boys seemed to speed up their pace, which we found funny as well. In the end, Danny finally saw that five girls (Connie Y had joined us at some point) were staring from the glass sliding door.

While waiting for the boys to finish up, we entertained ourselves by taking group pictures. Although around 3am we realized that this was BEFORE Regina arrived, which a major point of getting together in winter break is to ACTUALLY SEE Regina. Sigh. At least we have those great staircase pictures. WHICH are on my memory card that is in Connie Yu's camera!

Finally we were told to be seated where Henry slowly poured very Asian-style soup into our bowls. Then Owen broke out the $10 champagne, which Danny had bought (CUTE!).

Owen: How do you pop open a champagne bottle-- *POP* AHHHHH

FINALLY we began dinner at 9:22 which is about 2 and 1/2 hours after the scheduled eating time. That's ok though. Even if they said the food was cold, I thought it tasted great. Before we could eat though, Henry made a speech, where he told us about the theme of the dinner, where each dish represented a girl.

Connie L - Quiche because she is the baker
Connie Y - Taiwanese green onion-like pancakes with meat, which turned out to look a lot like Mexican quesadillas
Frances L - Soup because she likes tofu
Me - Crazy delicious paninis because I fucking love paninis and I am now addicted
Frances C - Sushi because she is Japanese-like
Regina - Chocolate chip cookies that are round, cute and sweet that ended up somewhat burnt because the following conversation took place: "We need to keep the cookies warm!" "The oven is warm! Just keep them in the oven!"
Jackie - Crepes with pears that are French-like and also sweet

Delicious, wonderful, and awesome.

Connie Y: What drugs or pills are you taking, meltang?
Me (without missing a beat): Birth control.

OH NO I can't think of more right now. Comment with quotes if you remember

After dinner, when we were all beyond full, we cleaned up and washed dishes. In the very end, I realized that several people had not been seen, and they were sitting on Alvin's staircase gossiping. I joined them, and slowly, one by one the entire group was congregated there. We took really cute staircase pictures (we should just have a staircase that leads to nowhere for camera backdrops) and then started on our Secret Santa exchange.

I wanted people to guess who they thought had given them the gift, because it seemed far more fun than just handing them out. Alvin and Eric didn't have secret santas, so they had to hand out presents. After much discussion over how to proceed, we ended up lining up the presents in a line on the table, and then lining up in a single file line with our backs turned against them, where Henry commented that it felt very much like we were about to get shot. Alvin went around and asked who got who which present, and then we were handed them it.

I was handed my gift and the second I looked at what I was holding at, I said something like "OMG DANNY. YOU ARE MY SECRET SANTA?!" It was hilarious because just earlier, I had found his insanely cute gift bag on the table of gifts, and had gone "WHOSE GIFT IS THIS?!" and Danny was like "It's mine. I actually rebagged it" but it was so effing cute and so Danny-like that all the girls laughed about it. AND I ended up with it. I swear, that bag is going to stay with me until my death. Maybe I will be buried with that bag.

How the gift bag is Danny-like:
1) It has a bunch of Sesame Street characters on it, and is obviously for little children
2) It has been used before (although this is generally very Asian-like)
3) My gift had been thrown in without any wrapping around it, even though the gift was a rectangular shape, which is the EASIEST thing to wrap EVER

Will opened his gift of alcohol and a drinking game, and because of a previous comment I had made, assumed it was mine. I went along with it, getting a hug from him and a very kind thank you. Connie Y, his real secret santa, got angry and started banging her gift on the table and making a pouty face. It was awesome.

Regina opened my gift and it was pretty obviously mine because it was a DVD. It is also the DVD that I put on my own wishlist, and ended up having my brother buy for me, and I forgot to take it off my wishlist, which was STUPID because then DANNY bought it for me. The second he saw what Regina got, he was like "WHY did you buy a gift that you put on your own wishlist?!" so I knew what my gift was, even though I had already known who gave it to me. But AWW I still think it's so nice of Danny to have actually clicked on my wishlist to see if I had listed anything.

Jackie got Frances L's gift, but after she opened it, she knew it had to be either Connie L or Frances L because her gift was DVDs and books. She pointed at the both of them, which I thought was very funny

Connie Y got a scarf and a gift card from Connie L and I think she already knew who had had her even though for a week before the exchange, she kept asking people "DO YOU KNOW WHO MY SECRET SANTA IS?"

Danny, whose gift was in a Bath and Body Works bag, had immediately said "WHO BOUGHT ME SOMETHING from BATH AND BODY WORKS?!" You could tell he was going to be very disappointed as he opened his bag. Then a gift WITHIN the bag fell out, which was a (wrapped?) rectangular box. He opened it, finding a game for his Nintendo DS, and you could clearly see the pure delight in his face. HAHA Will is genius for that B&BW trick wrapping

Frances C got a gift from Owen (which Eric, Alvin and I were present at the purchase) that was a vibrating Totoro stuffed animal and some lanterns that she could string up around the room. She responded with a "OMGGG I've always wanted a Totoro" which made me think more highly of Owen, because he knew that she liked Totoro. Also, there are great memories where Owen told us who his secret santa was and basically this would go down:

Guys: WHAT Frances C is EASY to buy for
Me: UH WHAT?! NO SHE'S NOT. She's one of the hardest!
Guys: Just get her something Japanese-y
Me: UH... I would just get her some jewelry or something

*at the mall*
Guys: Let's go to Brookstone
Me: Brookstone?! You guys aren't going to find anything in Brookstone for her
(hour later)
Guys: I don't think there's anything we can get here. What about jewelry?
Me: Is ANYONE LISTENING TO ME?!
Guys: Frances C is freaking hard to buy for!

Owen got a gift from Regina that was actually REALLY well wrapped, which I did not expect. HAHA JK. It was such clear evidence of the difference between girls and guys because Owen got a snowboarding calendar and a completely useless toy where two ninjas were attached to springs on a plastic ninja-star shaped base, where you basically spun it around to see them "fight" each other. All the girls had "WTF" looks while all the boys quickly gathered around, going "WHOAAA AWESOMEEEEEE." Apparently Regina had asked Eric wtf to get Owen, and he was like "there is this store in the mall. Go there." HAHA

Frances L got a gift from Henry, and before "unwrapping" it, she was like "this is clearly a guy, because of the wrapping. But I'm sorry if it turns out to be a girl." It was a DVD in a Christmas-decorated paper bag. I'm wondering if Henry happened to have a Christmas-decorated paper bag sitting around in his house, or if he actually had to buy a pack of them. Also, much like Danny, he had put a SIMPLE RECTANGULAR OBJECT into a BAG. HAHAH

Connie L got assorted foods from Jackie, which she had taken care to wrap, only to have it ruined by my terrible driving. SORRY JACKIE! We ended up drinking Connie's gift of Trader Joe's apple cider.

Secret Santa exchange was awesomely fun. I loved it. Apparently awesomely is a word but blonde is not. Lamesauce.

Then began our fun conversations of the night. Will and Connie Y broke off but we sat on chairs and on the floor and just asked each other questions. Danny immediately started playing his new DS game, as anyone would expect.

Fun parts:

Frances L: If we were all stranded on an island, who in TMV would you eat first?
All: NOT Danny
*This somehow leads into a conversation of what part of the body would be best to eat, and Owen explaining that the ribs would be the tastiest*
Frances L: Well I just know that you wouldn't eat Henry because he could gather fish and meat for us
Me: Wait, when you asked that question, did you guys think of it as "who would be most expendable" or "who would be tastiest?"
*Almost everyone goes "who would be tastiest" while I think three say "who would be most expendable" which I thought was hilarious

Frances L: Would you guys date a girl if she left your friend to be with you?
Guys: It depends on how much you like the girl and who the friend is
Me: Wait, Owen, didn't you do that to Eric? Or was it Eric who did it to Owen?
Owen and Eric: DON'T BRING UP THE PAST. LET'S JUST DROP THIS.

Me: If someone who knew the future told you you would meet the love of your life ONLY if you had to be a janitor, would you do it?
Everyone: UHHHHH...
Connie L: I will settle for the second place love of my life

Eric: Do you think we will be life long friends?

Frances L: Well we have more convenient means of communication now. Before, our parents would have to write letters but now we can e-mail
Eric: E-mail is so SLOWWWW

Owen: Ok, conversation's gone on long enough. Let's play bang
Me: WHAT? We haven't even had an awkward silence yet! We can talk for so much longer
Some guy: Fine. Flatulence!
Frances L: WHAT? That's not even that awkward.
Danny: Let's talk about butt sex
*Awkward silence falls upon group*

Me (asking the guys): If you got really drunk and found yourself naked in bed with another man and you KNEW you two had had sex, WOULD YOU TELL TMV
All guys: WHOAAAA ... I don't know ...
(In the end, the boys agreed that it would never happen because they'd never be drunk enough to do it with a man, at least to get it up, but I think the general consensus was still a NO they would not tell TMV)

Owen, Danny and Alvin: Let's play Bang!
Most everyone else: NO / Then I'm going home / I'm not playing / Let's keep talking
Alvin (asking the magic 8 ball): Will we play bang tonight?
*Outcome comes out unclear*
Me: Will we play bang before we leave?
*Outcome unlikely*
Alvin: Will we play bang tonight?
*Outcome unclear*
Alvin: Will you answer whether we will play bang tonight?
*Outcome yes*
Alvin: Will we play bang tonight?
*Outcome unlikely*
Alvin: No! Will we play bang tonight?
*Outcome don't count on it*
Alvin: Will we play bang tonight?
*Outcome unlikely*
Me: OMG. IT'S SAID NO THREE TIMES. WE'RE GOING HOME
Alvin: Will we NOT play bang tonight?
*Outcome yes*

Things we realized today:
We almost always freeze up and say the stupidest randomest shit in front of people we really like, so that we are never that close to them
WD-40 stands for water displacer
TMV guys care more about face than body which maybe means I should spend less time at the gym and more time caking my face in makeup
Danny's stories are always about his cousins
Our parents are real people who have gone through some pretty fascinating experiences
Most of our families are kind of messed up
Nice and prettiness in a girl is not enough to make up for utter boringness
The chances of us all staying friends depends on how much we value vacation time with friends vs family vs significant others

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

On my homepage

I saw this on my homepage today, while I was going to check facebook.


Umm ... YEAH when you've waited long enough in a relationship that you look like you're about to turn 45, and your partner looks like he could be a grandpa, you dump his ass.

My Berkeley friend is coming! I hope my friends will join me today because otherwise I really don't know where I will take her.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

New Years Resolutions

1. Lose weight
2. Exercise daily
3. Eat healthier
4. Get good grades
5. Make lasting friendships

Basically the same thing I talk about in all of my entries

Progress so far:
Ate a really greasy sandwich at Denny's at 3am

Happy New Years! (edited 1/1)

Boo to the winds! It was too windy at Disney so they didn't set off any fireworks. But I'm glad we paid for parking because I still had lots of fun. We walked around downtown disney and even though I was a freaking fifth wheel it was not weird. :) I should find someone to date, but then we wouldn't have had space in the car. I was like "D, find someone for me by midnight. Someone white" but he only pointed out old white guys to me. D is awesome. He will ask strangers to take group pictures for us, which everyone is generally not inclined to do. He also bought Connie and me hot drinks while Will and Frances stood in line for kettle corn. I freaking love what happened next.

We went back to stir our drinks and Connie had gotten one of those wooden stirrers and threw it away. She walks away, right when a 25-year old looking woman comes up and gets a wooden stirrer too. D says loudly to Connie "WOW Thanks for wasting wood!" and the stranger lady looks at him with a mix of surprise, confusion, and WTH. D very smoothly says "oh no not you, happy New Year!" and I'm to his left side laughing hysterically. It was awesome. I wish someone had recorded it.

Also, when we drove into the parking lot, the lady who took our money looked like a Disney character to me. This is not to be mean, but to simply comment on her hairstyle and height, but she looked like one of the Disney villains. So after we drove past I was like "GUYS! Didn't she look like one of the Disney witches?!" Everyone goes "uh... no... which one?" "One of the lesser known ones! I think she was in Sleeping Beauty. But not that tall black one. Does she take another form during the movie? Hmm ... maybe not sleeping beauty. I don't know! I'll find a picture of her at the store and point her out" "They only have princesses there, they don't have villains!"

And once we start going into stores I'm all "OK let's keep an eye out." There were some wall paintings of Alice in Wonderland so I was like "maybe she was in Alice in Wonderland... or maybe Robin Hood? She has blonde hair." (WAIT WTF, isn't it blonde not blond? There is a red squiggly under blonde)

Frances goes off and comes back and says "I think I found her. Are you sure she has blonde hair, meltang?" "YES! I'm certain of it! It's blonde!" "The person I found has purple hair" "Then it's not her!" "Let's go look anyway" ... "OMG IT'S HER!!!"
Somehow, the fact that the witch I was thinking of did NOT have blonde hair and was not in ANY of the movies I guessed was fairly unsurprising.

New Years is unexpectedly fun. HAHA. I don't like Thanksgiving or Christmas Day but I think 12/31 turns out ok most of the time.

More quotes just because I'd like to remember them:

*while at Frances' house*
Frances' mom: Be safe tonight!
Me: Well, we're going to Disneyland so I thought that it would be pretty safe
*Mom walks away*
Me: I was about to tell her how my cousin went to Vegas once for New Years and they were pulling over gangbangers and taking handguns from them, to show her that Disneyland is much safer in comparison, but I realized that I probably shouldn't
Frances: There would have been a long awkward pause, and then a speech

*while driving Connie and Frances to my house*
Me: Fine. I'll drive you guys. But no one can speak to me.

Connie: Are you nervous? Why are you clutching the steering wheel so hard?
Me: THIS IS HOW I DRIVE.

*Driving past a police women controlling traffic who is actually quite young*
Me: Wow, I want to learn how to put my hair up like hers. It's pretty
Di (rolling down window): HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Me: DON'T FLIRT WITH HER.

Di: How old is your brother?
Me: He's four years older than me so 20. (realizing that this means it's illegal for him to drink) Wait a minute ... 22? 23? 24?
Di: How old are you?!
Me: 19. I think he's 22.
(After typing this out, I realized that he's actually three years older than me, but I never caught my mistake)

*In Sephora*
Will (holding some bath product): WHOA what is this? It looks delicious

Me: My brother said there's a 50/50 chance that they won't have fireworks because there's a lot of wind but I was like "of COURSE they'll have fireworks! Otherwise people would get angry"
*Upon reaching Downtown Disney, where there are signs with Fireworks Canceled signs*
Group: aww...