Sunday, November 30, 2008

Oh of course

Of course, I leave my gmail on my web browser for the past six hours and never closed it. And then I log into blogger, subsequently logging me out of gmail, a second before I realize I needed to check my mail. HATE! I don't understand how to link my gmail account to this blog, instead of having to sign in with my yahoo account. You'd think the three second inconvenience would be inconsequential, but it makes me hate blogger a little more each time I sign in.

I think I watched too many Kristen Stewart interviews last week because today I found myself constantly running my fingers through my hair, trying to make it more voluminous. And now it's a lot more oily than it was in the morning.


A better song could have been used.

I think I am supposed to leave for Berkeley at 5. I have yet to finish my presentation, although I only have one more slide left. I have to make a calendar, but I do not know how to make one like the presenters before me did. I plan to just e-mail it to my partner and tell him to do it. But I don't know if I trust his artistic capabilities. I have a nagging sense than I did not cover all of my bases. I wish I had made a good business friend in marketing, who would sit through my presentation and point out all the flaws. Even if I practice with my friends, none of them understand the intensity of UGBA 106's Q&A session.

I cannot believe it's December 1st. I hate it when important things take place at the beginning of the month and they creep up on you. I will devote the next three days to this marketing presentation. And then celebrate the weekend by going to Crate and Barrel and seeing if they have massive sales.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

SECRETS!

Thanksgiving was funnish. I had two excellent dinners, bought a bunch of stuff I actually like, and had long convos with people. But by 2:00 today I felt very tired and just wanted to stay in. Too much going out. I'm an old lady. I didn't accomplish very much for my marketing presentation (SO FUCKED) but it's only 9:30 (at time of publishing, now 10:30). It feels like it should be 2:30 though. What a long night it will be. It's one of those projects where, in the beginning, you think it's going to be easy, but the more you do, the more it becomes like "WTF I have absolutely no idea what I'm supposed to do."

I always want to do something when I go home but I don't. And then I regret it when I go back to Berkeley. I came close today, but not yet. Maybe next time.

I feel like my parents like each other more now. I think they are proof that if you don't like a person, if you stay with them for about twenty-five years, you might get so used to their annoying habits that you end up liking them.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Reality Show Rants



My favorite reality tv show character! That I can remember at least. I've seen a lot of reality shows and I generally forget about them once the season is over.

She got voted off last week though, which PISSES me off. This show is TOTALLY flawed. A good reality show has to have characters you can root for and characters you want to take down. The season goes well if in the end, you have the likable characters remaining. If you have a season where only the unlikable characters are remaining, you're not going to have a very excited audience because there's no one to cheer for in the last few episodes.

The Biggest Loser, like most reality shows, splits them up into teams and then half way through, they compete individually. But they always wear colored shirts, blue for those trained by Bob and black for those trained by Jillian. Unlike other reality shows, for some reason, after the splitup they still function as if they were on teams, and it's expected of them to ALWAYS vote for someone of a different colored shirt, unless the bottom two performers are from the same team, in which case you have no choice but to vote for either one. There is no reason for them to continue voting with the team, because it's INDIVIDUAL! You have equal chances of being the bottom two, and all reward challenges are invidivual at this point anyway.

But when someone goes against the team, everyone acts like it's some major backstabbing move, when it's NOT! There's no reason to be loyal to someone, especially if you have the opportunity to vote off the biggest bitch in the house who is just going to vote your ass off when she gets the chance ANYWAY. They reason that they need to "keep the numbers," meaning get the majority so they're safe. But there's no reason to keep the majority based on team color, beyond a few weeks of false security, because once you eliminate one side, you just start eliminating your own group. If you're already split up at this point, I think people have to start thinking about 1) who is their biggest competiton in the long run and 2) who they think is deserving of the reward, and just say "screw the team" if it comes to it.

People make alliances in the beginning within their team, which makes sense and although I think it's a little unfair in this particular show, I'd say it's ok. It is still a game. But I find it ridiculous when competing individually, person A keeps person B when they have NO alliance together, and person B has a horrible personality and has posted a REVENGE BOARD for person A. WTF.



If you are in a reality show here is how elimination should go:
1. First two weeks - you have no idea what anyone is like, so you vote for the person who was the most annoying that week and made some unfortunate comment
2. You start making alliances and someone will lead the pack and decide who to vote for. There will be someone who is either particularly annoying, someone who isn't pulling their weight and doesn't deserve to be there, or more rarely, someone who is CLEARLY going to win the game so you vote them off early before they end up dominating the rest of the game
3. The show is suddenly split up individually, but for that week you still vote with your team because no one really knows what's going on
4. You start voting depending on how it will affect YOU and not how it will affect your "team." You obviously vote against people who are out to get you, or you vote for someone who is unlikely to vote along with you in coming weeks.
UNLESS.
You could be the swing vote and are currently on the majority. But the majority is filled with game players who, while they have played the game well and managed to make a majority, are actually the worst human beings on the show and possibly the worst people you have ever met. In this case, YOU FREAKING GO AGAINST THEM.

Why? Because if you are the swing vote, this means you're NEXT on the chopping block when the majority finishes off the minority. If you're not going to win, you might as well help someone who you would feel better about winning go a little farther, rather than someone who is a terrible person.

From the subtext of the show, it seems like the only reason they continue voting by teams is because their trainers tell them to. Contestants have said "Bob has a rule - never vote for someone on your team." The benefit for him is that it increases his chances of someone from HIS team winning, giving him more bragging rights. But it doesn't benefit the contestant AT ALL. UGH!

I am clearly far too invested in my television shows. I kind of want to eat pie. HAHA

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Keyboard Shortcuts

I can't believe I'm writing a blog entry when I have YET to start my environmental sciences paper. AGH! I don't think I can finish it tonight, at least not if I want a gibberish-free paper. :(

My Logitech mouse has not been working well the past week so I just stopped using it. I'm pretty sure it's because I kept banging the USB connector against the wall when I took my laptop in and out of the bathroom (so I can play music when I shower, not so I can do weird stuff with my computer in the bathroom), so now something is messed up. I need to start keeping ALL of my receipts, because I could have sent it in for warranty but I am certain I threw the receipt and box away.

I've been slowly picking up some keyboard shortcuts and I LOVE learning how to use them. It would be awesome if I were able to do EVERYTHING mouse-free, but I don't know if that is possible. I would have to figure out how to navigate different menus without clicking but I don't know where to go after pressing the button with a menu and mouse pointer on it.

My favorite shortcuts are:
Alt + Tab which lets you switch between programs. I think the large icons are very cute
F5 which is refreshing the page
Control + R, L, or E for different justifications on Microsoft Word, which I LOVE to do without having to search for the icons
Control + T for a new tab on the web browser

I bought a CD for FULL PRICE today. It's a little sad how long I debated whether or not to buy a real CD that was not preowned. The cd that gets this distinction for the first time in several years is The 88 - Not Only ... But Also. I have been meaning to buy this CD for a long time, but when I saw its album cover displayed on Rasputin, I couldn't leave without it. It was only $7.73 which was fairly cheap.

Wasting time by thinking about life

This is completely 100% an attempt to delay work on my environmental sciences final paper. It was supposed to be half completed yesterday but I ended up watching Speak. Which, the entire time I was watching it, I was thinking "why does this movie sound so familiar?" and then I realized it's based on a book I had read. I'm glad Kristen Stewart's resume is so limited, otherwise I'd be wasting even more time watching her movies. (No more pictures of her because I'm quite close to weird teenage girl fan crush status) I finished my case study paper on Russia but now I've gotten so sick of writing the word environmental that I don't want to do anything else. But I had really planned on finishing my final paper before Thanksgiving, so I could come back from break and only worry about three classes. Also, I get the pride and glory of saying I finished a paper two weeks before its due date.

I want to go home NOW! I never used to get homesick for Arcadia, probably because I liked living in the dorms more. I wouldn't say I'm homesick, but I look forward to going home a lot more now. Before I would only be excited to see TMV, but now, *GASP* I'm actually excited to see my parents as well. I enjoy going home and eating this red bean pancake thing that my mom buys every time I go home. I like how clean and uncluttered my room is - it feels kind of like a hotel room because I can just throw my suitcase on the ground and for however long I'm home, my clothes just end up spread out on the floor.

Now, I take joys in little things, like being able to walk around on barefoot or showering in a large bathroom, or my Dad happily washing dirty dishes for me. Although I always get a little pissed when I look at myself the next day, it's funny how my mom ALWAYS buys a new carton of ice cream whenever I'm coming home, just so she can eat some too. I like having the option of running at the AHS track, although I haven't done so since the summer, I think.

After visiting UCSD for Veteran's Day I was really contemplating whether I would rather live in SD or SF when I graduate. After last week's adventures around SF, it's an unequivocal vote for San Francisco. The food, the financial district, the views and the CRAZY culture that is SF - how can you want to leave? I don't know why so many SF events entail nudity, but it's hilarious.

I am really looking forward to the day when I can move into a clean, modern-looking apartment building. I wonder if I would be living alone. When I picture my future, I imagine living by myself, which seems so luxurious. It would be AWESOME to do everything MY way. My living situation is not terrible now - one of my apartmentmates is a lot messier than I would like, but whatever. Knowing other people's situations, at least their personalities are likable. But there are so many little things that I wish people would do, like can you SQUEEZE the sponge, or can you DRY YOUR FEET before stepping on the bathmat, but they're so little that there's no point in telling people, otherwise I'd just come off as crazy.

I want to be able to go home to MY OWN place, throw my shit on the sofa and just play music as loudly as I want. I want to be 100% certain that I am cleaning up a mess I made, and I like the idea of cleaning after myself, and knowing that when something becomes dirty again, it's because of MY actions and not someone else's. I can have a fridge of only MY food, my apples, my hummus, and my carrot sticks. Also, I wouldn't have to have a backup towel in the bathroom for the MANY times that I forgot to bring my towel.

But then I always wonder about how lonely I will feel. I already lived completely alone for the summer, and along with the idea of "I WANT TO PROLONG SCHOOL AS LONG AS POSSIBLE," I had reached the now forgotten conclusion of "DON'T EVER LIVE ALONE." After staying at Connie's apartment, I realized how difficult it would be to have a dog if I were living alone, especially if I am at work all the time. I think it's very fun to come home hungry after a long day of school and say "JON I'M HUNGRY" and we go off to eat. Or it's midnight and I say "JON I'M HUNGRY" and we think about what we want to eat. But other than companionship, and Chrystal pointed out safety, I want to live alone!

Of course, this is a moot point if I end up not getting the job I want, and I don't have the money to live alone anyway.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

More Kristen Stewart related stuff

I could have probably finished my environmental sciences paper by now but instead I watched In the Land of Women. It is one of those movies that has to deceive audiences by having a trailer that makes it look like a typical boy falls in love with girl movie after a cute courtship and a dramatic fight, when they actually don't even end up together and were never meant to be coupled to begin with.

Watching the movie made me sad that I did not have the same luck in genes as Kristen Stewart does. Should I post another picture? Sure why not. Maybe it will make my male readers happier.


Apparently Twilight was the largest opening weekend for a female director. Here is a quote from a Yahoo! article (don't judge me - I also read nytimes.com!)

"Teen girls rule the earth," said Paul Dergarabedian, president of Media By Numbers. "If you look back at the ` Hannah Montana' movie , how well that did, and now this movie, the teen girl audience will never be ignored again or underestimated. It was always teen boys who were the coveted ones, but someone finally caught on to the idea that girls love movies, too, and if you create something that they're into, that they're passionate about, they will come out in big numbers and drive the box office."

I'm not a huge feminist or anything but WOW. I already knew about the disappointing lack of movies that are directed or focused on women or minorities - or at least, the lack of movies that are greenlighted. I guess it's a good thing that someone is acknowledging this, but the quote kind of rubs me the wrong way. Yeah, THANKS to that SOMEONE out there who SUDDENLY realized women actually HAVE money and are able to SPEND IT. Can you imagine WOMEN having BUYING POWER? WOW. I guess we have to put out more movies directed at girls then, because SHOCKER they have an impact.

Ok. It is 10:58. I should write my paper. I know I am procrastinating because I am scared I won't be able to hit the seven page minimum page limit. I could add another topic but I really do not want to spend more time researching Russia's environmental issues. I wish I did not have to know so much about a foreign country. It hurts my brain.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

It's Early Thanksgiving!

Today is the day of Cal's Big Game against Stanford. For the first time since I've been at Berkeley, I went to the bonfire rally. It was kind of cool but felt reallyyy dragged out. It's nice to say I've been to one though. It was INSANE getting in - there was a huge line but Paulo was calling Caroline and Joe and they told us to just come to the front since they had tickets. I can't believe we were actually able to see them when we got to the front. They were holding out tickets for us and this random girl mistook them for her own friends and was like "OMG THANKS!" and there was a huge awkward moment before she was like "oh wait ... sorry!"

So today I woke up and it felt SO THANKSGIVINGish! I think because there's football in the air, and we were going to Caroline's to watch the game. Jon and I went to Trader Joe's to buy salsa and chips and Caroline was making muffins, so it felt like a precursor to a Thanksgiving feast. HAHA

While Caroline was making muffins she was like "can one of you run to the store and get me some milk?" and Paulo was like "i will" and I burst out laughing because it seemed SO family like. And Jon is sitting on the ground making cute signs for tonight's volleyball game (I <3 Cutura #26) and (MARRY ME #3).

It's third down right now! I think I'm going to miss the end because I have to go to a meeting soon >=(

So much work to do! I can't believe I've done SO LITTLE. I keep pushing back things. Boo boo. My earlier post said I was going to miss a volleyball game, the bonfire rally, another volleyball game, and the football game. But I've actually ended up going to every single one of them. At the cost of my GPA.

Thanksgiving soon! I'm excited.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Kristen Stewart

Even though Connie L bought me Twilight for my birthday (THANK YOU!) I guess I'm totally out of the loop because I didn't notice that it's this "huge phenomenon." I totally don't get how it became so famous. There is always someone trying to put a twist on the vampire story that I don't really notice any of them anymore. I think I kind of combined Moonlight and Twilight into one thing in my head. But lately I've been noticing a huge surge in mentions to some guy whose name I don't remember - Robert Patterson? Who plays the vampire and I know he is Cedric Diggory from Harry Potter, and Kristen Stewart.

This whole time I have also combined Kristen Stewart with Kimberly Stewart into one person. I vaguely remember that Kimberly Stewart is friends with Paris Hilton. So I was kind of befuddled as to why so many people were paying attention to Paris Hilton's BFF.

But FINALLY I actually watched an interview with Kristen Stewart and realized: she is totally not Kimberly Stewart. Silly me for thinking Paris Hilton was friends with a respectable person. I still don't really get the excitement over the books and most of the people who comment on the books say something along the lines of "they're not very well-written but I couldn't stop reading them."

Most of all, I don't get the appeal over Robert Patterson. Why is he so pale? Is it preparation for the Twilight sequels? And why does Kristen Stewart look SO angry all the time? I've been trying to find the interview that made me interested in looking for more Twilight stuff in the first place, but I can't remember where I read it. Basically it was something where she said she couldn't understand what the huge appeal was, and she kind of dissed the people who are obsessed with the books.

And EVERY interview I watch her in, she has this Look that's like "I fucking hate going on these media circuits." I think she sounds very smart in her answers, but they're all very carefully worded and there still seems to be a subtext of "I hate my character and think she's a complete idiot and if I had known what a huge annoyance it would be to become famous, I would not have done this part to begin with. Also, I hate my costar so I will fidget here and constantly run my fingers through my incredibly volumnous hair until this damn interview comes to an end."

I thought she just hated Meredith Viera at first, but the more interviews I watch, the more I'm convinced: she totally hates Hollywood.


I thought she looked very pretty in this interview, and she couldn't run her hands through her hair because it's tied back so tightly. She kind of dresses like Frannie, I think. :D


I could barely finish this interview, it's so painfully strained

I think she's first "rising star in Hollywood" that doesn't seem like a mindless idiot.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Getting close to broke

Back from SF! I LOVE my black dress. As expected, I do not like my heels. They look cute I guess, but I think I have to poke another hole in the strap because it's too loose. So I went to Supperclub with my friends from RCSA. Supperclub is ... not easy to put into words.

To sound totally juvenile, I GOT DRINKS and didn't get carded! Awesomeness. And the servers there were like "what's the occasion? are you guys coworkers?" which is COOL. I am out of the college student segment. :D The bar was really nice and the bartender was very cool looking. It would be interesting to learn how to bartend.

So the lounge is like ... a room and instead of tables you lie on these white beds. It's a three course entree and I thought the food was very good. It wasn't as snotty as I thought it would have been. Our waitress was normal but the amount of strange there was off the charts. I feel like it was totally San Francisco. There was a man in a skintight rabbitsuit and the first words I heard him say were "MY PENIS IS ON YOU! MY PENIS IS ON YOU!" to the lady next to us. When he came over to our party and basically lied on our legs, I saw him rubbing Kristen's knee for an exceedingly long time. HAHA Then there was a group of people dressed in drag or clownish outfits and it seems like their jobs are basically to sit around, drink, talk, eat, and occasionally pretend to have sex with each other. Seems like a fun way to earn money.

The food is really good - the soup was creamier than I usually like, but it definitely filled me up. I don't really know what we had, but I heard the words celery and scallop. But it kind of tasted like my palak paneer. Then we had this beef thing with potatoes and vegetables that had a really good sauce on them. I heard the word Thai. HAHA And then we had a REALLY good dessert that was like ... some sort of ... not ice cream but something sweet and scooped, with a wafer and something kind of like a chocolate souffle with sauce. I heard the words pistachio and mint.

Only downside - I'm out $60. But it was a pretty well spent $60 - lots of interesting memories. In the middle of dinner, we had A SHOW where this fairly naked guy did the most AMAZING THINGS on a trapeze swing. At one point, he was hanging on it with the BACK OF HIS NECK. CRAZY.

I was supposed to go clubbing tomorrow but I think I've been going out too much. BOO BOO. I don't think I'll have another chance to get into an over 21 club until I'm actually 21. Sigh. I'm ALSO missing out on the bonfire rally, a volleyball game, AND the football game. LKJDFKLDSJFLDSf WHY did I have to have a presentation for marketing SO LATE? I could have gone to ALL OF THESE if I didn't feel guilty about getting a shit grade.

I've decided that I AM going to take back my job at Equilar. Pros: money, it gives me something to do, and this way I have a backup for graduation. Cons: my eyesight will go down, I should probably be concentrating soley on recruiting

Quote of the day:
Kristen: Where did you learn how to twirl a baton?
Gay man in bunny suit: I taught myself. I taught myself a lot of things. I taught myself how to sew ... how to suck dick ... and how to twirl a baton

"I wish life were like driving on a bridge all the time"

That makes no sense, but I'm extremely tired. I've been out since 1:00 and just got back and showered (it's almost 1am now). How much money did I spend today? $181.62. Holy fucking shit. It's not even Black Friday yet. This month's expenditures chart is going to make me want to kill myself. It's not even the HOLIDAY SEASON YET. FUCK.

I spent a total of $123.62 on shopping, $17 on food, $25 on a concert ticket, and FREAKING $16 for parking and toll. Transportation costs are DIVIDED IN HALF with Chrystal. Fucking ridiculous. NOW I understand when public transportation is cheaper than private transportation. When you have to freaking PARK IN SF. What am I to do if I work in SF?! I don't want to ride the bart back during rush hour and there's no way I can drive to work every day. I guess I'll just live in the office until 8pm, when traffic dies down.

I don't like the shoes that I bought today but I CAN'T BELIEVE I FOUND A CUTE BLACK DRESS! HALF OFF at Bebe too! Who would have thought that I would ever buy anything at freaking BEBE? It's not skanky - to be honest I don't remember how it looks but I'm far too tired to try it on right now. I should make sure that my necklaces and shoes all match but whatever - what can I do if they don't? I just remember being surprised that I actually liked the dress at Bebe when I tried it on. It was the second store I looked at too! Looking for shoes at DSW got really desperate so I just went with the first pair I had looked at. Of course, it took me about two hours to decide that. -_-

After shopping, we went to Little Star Pizza and by this point I was FREAKING hungry. OMGGG SO Delicious though. We went to another one, not near Castro but closer to the Civic Center. Apparently it's walking distance to the bart station, so I think I will be eating litte star pizza A LOT MORE OFTEN! Chrystal LOVED it. Once again, I ate half a pizza, but it was a 9" not a 12", so it wasn't nearly as painful as the time I ate half a pizza with Alvin. Added bonus: we found really close, free street parking. AMAZING!

But the parking for concert - NOT AMAZING. Thank goodness there was an $18 maximum. -_- Chrystal and I were freaking out because while paying for drinks at the concert, we realized that we had ended up with only a $1.50 left in our pockets. NOT GOOD. I'm trying not to think about the fact that I spent close to $200 in a day. The dress is forgivable. The shoes and necklace, not so much. I could have saved $10 if we had just taken the Bart instead of driving, but we had assumed lugging around shopping bags to a concert would be too big of a hassle. Other than that, I have no regrets.

The concert was ok - pretty good considering I have never really listened to Minus the Bear, except for when Chrystal would play it in our dorm room. It made me want to go to more concerts. We managed to get a table on the side, which felt a lot nicer than having to stand for three sets.

And, AMAZINGNESS! I totally have a sense of direction in SF now! After walking from the Transbay Terminal to Westfield several times this summer, and then a few times taking the muni, I've kind of gotten a vague idea of where the major streets in SF are. At one point, I was like "I think we go this way" and I was TOTALLY RIGHT, even though I had no map in front of me. Awesome.

I'm so tired. SOOO TIRED. I'm going to sleep now.

Three more weeks of fucking marketing and the worst class of my life will be over. More on this one day, when I'm feeling more hateful.

Yay to a good day. Boo to the fact that tomorrow I will once again be blowing a hole through my wallet. Dinner's alone will be $50. Fuck my life. WHY CAN'T I BE MAGICALLY RICH?

I think I will start working again. If only so I can ease the guilt of the next week (oh god, Black Friday, I dread you and what you shall do to my bank account).

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I HATE being a female

ARGH. After much debating I finally relented and said I would go to this club/lounge/restaurant/whatever the heck it is place in SF with my friends on Thursday. I hope they don't kick me out after they start serving drinks. I have to freaking buy an entire outfit just for this night. It's something I've been meaning to do for the past three years, but whenever I go to the mall, I hate looking for clothes like dresses and business suits. Which are things that I actually desperately need. I only remember how crappy my wardrobe is a few days before I REALLY need the clothes.

So I need: either a nice dressy top, skirt, and heels, OR I hope I can find a cute black dress and shoes, because that can probably be used more often. THEN I probably have to find something for a party I'm going to on Saturday too. LKSDJFLDSFJLDSFJDSKLFJSLD I DON'T HAVE THE MONEY FOR THIS. Thursday night alone is probably going to cost me $150, just for the meal and outfit. FUCK MY LIFE.

Luckily for me, I was already planning on going shopping with Chrystal tomorrow. I guess she can help me look for stuff, although I don't think we share the same style. We're supposed to go shopping around noon, and then eat at Little Star Pizza (YUM YUM!) and then go to a concert. Of course, I feel like I just suddenly got fatter, at a CRUCIAL MOMENT TOO.

I also just watched The Biggest Loser and I can't believe Coleen got voted off instead of Vicky. WTF. Sometimes when major upsets happen, the eliminated person takes it very graciously and doesn't say anything spiteful. I feel like if someone voted ME off instead of the BIGGEST BITCH in the house, I would throw a major bitch fit. It would be the sort of event where promos show a clip of me going "WHAT the FUCKING HELL?---" and voice it over with "The most DRAMATIC ELIMINATION YET!"

I always enjoy the ending of The Biggest Loser where they show the contestants as they are now. It's crazy that Coleen was so excited to walk into a Macy's and pick clothes off the rack to wear, something she couldn't do before. I guess it makes me think about the things I take for granted, like having space between my thighs (something Chrystal pointed out to me). But then I still hold out for the day when I can say "Today I walked into Bebe and tried on a skanky top. I can't believe it fit me! But I didn't buy it because I'm not a skanky 40-year old Asian mom"

I am currently in my annual "I don't like my life - I'm not doing anything productive and I just sit around watching tv" mode. In the past two years, I remedied this by working at Equilar. I am kind of ready to go back to work there, but I distinctly remembering telling myself NEVER AGAIN. Also, I should just concentrate on recruiting for next semester. SIGH. I need to do something more meaningful in my life. Like maybe make some friends that are my own age, so I can actually go out drinking with people next year.

I didn't do shit yesterday and my next homework assignment is due December 2nd. Which is kind of cool but I still feel incredibly unproductive. I'm going to finish the paper tonight so my next homework assignment is a presentation on December 4th.

Monday, November 17, 2008

One more week of school!

Again, according to my lame calendar which only counts full weeks and discounts the week before finals. So after the coming week, I'll be spending the next four weeks thinking "WTF WHY AM I IN SCHOOL?"

I wonder what the link is between msn.com and NBC's The Biggest Loser, but I find it suspicious that every week, there is some mention of The Biggest Loser: diet tips and weight loss stories on the site.

For someone who has never been in a relationship and has never really thought about marriage/weddings, (except that I know that if I were amazingly rich, I want FIREWORKS!!!) I would like this song to be played sometime during that day.



I finished my last accounting hw assignment today. I also finished the last case paper for my marketing class, and if I hadn't had the misfortune of picking the LAST week to present, I would have nothing left to worry about for that class, besides the final. I love that time of a semester when homework assignments are dwindling down. I'm so over school. I'm over this apartment and I'm kind of over Berkeley. LET ME LEAVE ALREADY!!!

I didn't get to go shopping this weekend OR go to the protests OR hang out with friends that much. After hearing about Brian's insane naked food orgy party at a co-op, I wonder if I will regret spending all my weekends couped up in my apartment, doing homework for the next week. Just so DURING the week I can waste my time watching tv and browsing sites without feeling guilty. Entertaining the scenario of eating melted chocolate off some stranger's body is fun but I doubt I would ever do it. I think the most disgusting thing I found about Brian's story was that everyone walked around barefoot. Not the random make outs with complete strangers, naked, sweaty dancing, or eating chocolate with HANDS, but EW! NO SHOES?! That's pretty yucky.

After five days of listening to Miley Cyrus, I've found that my favorite songs are:
1. Nobody's Perfect - which is really awesome to listen to as I walk around Berkeley because it does wonders for my self-esteem
2. See You Again (Rock Mafia Remix) - Once you hear the rock mafia remix, you can't go back to the original
3. The first twenty eight seconds of Girls Just Want To Have Fun
4. Simple Song - I think this is the one that sounds most like a normal song that could be played on the radio
5. Rock Star - I ALWAYS picture Miley Cyrus dancing around on stage to this song. I wish I could get the images out of my head. I don't even know where the images came from

I thought of this while showering after swimming, but I'm going to make a mixed CD for Eric and put two Miley Cyrus songs on it and make up a fake artist name. I don't think he reads this blog so he will not find out about this. Then I will ask him what he thinks about the songs. HEHEHE I did it to him with Lindsay Lohan - A Beautiful Life on a previous mixed cd

"Eric, do you like this song?"
"Yeah"
"Do you know who sings this?"
"No, who?"
"Lindsay Lohan"
"OMG WHAT?! NOOOO WHY DID YOU TELL ME THAT"

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I suck

I spent most of today discussing my marketing paper with my partner. We got a lot of ideas out, but we have no tangibles to turn in yet. I have to write up the paper by tomorrow night, and complete all of my other homework assignments. I'm pretty disappointed in myself because I had really wanted to go to SF today and participate in the protests. There aren't many issues I have strong feelings about, but gay rights is one of them. I also enjoy the feeling of being in a massive crowd and I wanted to see what kind of creative signs people had made. Instead I sat around in my apartment :( and I guess I went to Caroline's to eat her homemade waffles. I deem myself, LAME.

I used to eat one pita bread per meal, then started eating two. I told myself to go back to eating only one, and somehow, I've ended up eating FOUR A DAY. At this rate, I'm going to be spending ($1.50 x 6) + ($4.00 x 3) = $21 a WEEK in pita bread and hummus alone. That ... is not as cheap as I would like.

Yahoo says that depressed people watch 25 hours of tv a week. Thankfully, I do not watch twenty five hours of tv a week. I watch (HIMYM, Life, Lipstick Jungle, The Office, 30 Rock, Brothers and Sisters, Biggest Loser, Daily Show) 9 hours of tv a week! Is that all? I hope so.

Lipstick Jungle is cancelled! I'm so sad. The writing is so much better than the first season. I think the only good thing is that nothing crazy and ridiculous will happen before it gets cancelled (at least I hope) so it end well. If it had more seasons, I'm sure there would be many more breakups, which would be X__X But they do a very good job writing about their friendships and not always about their relationships, which needs to happen more in shows about women.

I started getting into Chuck too. NOOOO. I like Jordana Brewster a lot, and she has some guest roles in Chuck so instead of doing homework, I decided to watch that instead. Pretty, no?



OMG I should be doing ... HOMEWORK!

Friday, November 14, 2008

New reading material

Eric and Alvin have blogs. But they don't do very much to satisfy my blog reading needs! I sometimes have random moments when I really want to find interesting blogs to read. There are so many people in the world and I wonder how many of them have blogs that I would enjoy reading. It's very hard to find blogs to follow though. And I'm sure the joy of reading some blogs is because you can hear the person's voice in your head, which I never take the time to develop when reading a stranger's blog. :( Maybe I should be trying to find actual friends anyway.

I wish people would blog more often and more personally. This is what my blog would be if it were like others

THE MOST EPIC CREW RACE EVER*



This is a balance sheet I made in accounting class

Blah dippity doop bleep bloh. Bleep bloops leepity loop.

* I did not actually watch this video. I hope you didn't either

Thursday, November 13, 2008

An Embarassing Confession

It's kind of sad how eagerly I waited for Danny's three Miley Cyrus cds to finish transferring. Also sad - how I spent several seconds debating whether to change the artist name from Hannah Montana to Miley Cyrus for several songs. But I don't think I would have been able to sit and study microeconomics for so long if I hadn't been singing "NOBODY'S PERFECT I GOTTA WORK IT! AGAIN AND AGAIN TILL I GET IT RIGHT" in my head.

I hate that feeling when you're studying late into the night, and you wonder to yourself why you didn't start studying earlier. I know I have better time management than this. But it seems no matter how stressed I am, I find a reason to constantly check my gmail.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Back home from UCSD

I'm home! AND SO FUCKED! When I booked a ticket for home, I was intending it to be relaxation and a pick-me-up after realizing that I probably will not be getting a 4.0 this semester. Unfortunately, I think this weekend only made my grade situation WORSE. HAHA It was well worth it though :D

Now I dislike Berkeley TONS. I do not like my dark and kind of gross apartment! Why can't I live in a beautiful, modern looking apartment like everyone else? And I do not have TMVers just a few blocks away from me. :( But after this weekend, I wondered what would have happened if I had gone to a socal school as well. It seems like the biggest gatherings are when I come home. Maybe we would never had had big gatherings again if most of us were in socal! Well, it certainly makes the few moments we have together much more memorable and valuable to me.

Going to the SD airport was fun. I love the feeling of friends going to the airport together! There is sadness and happiness all at once. Sadness because I am leaving. But happiness because I have friends who are willing to drive me to the airport, and like me enough to visit them! :D

I was riding the bart back and I saw a terrible sight. The Bart coming from San Francisco to Richmond was PACKED. Disgustingly overfilled, and when it made stops, there were STILL people waiting in line, trying to get on. It looked grossly stuffy and uncomfortable from the Bart train that I was sitting in. It makes me wonder, do I want to take public transportation to work in the future? It was 6pm, so right during rush hour. I can imagine myself staying later at work just so I wouldn't have to go home at the same time as everyone else.

And I was also wondering to myself, if I have to go to the airport in the future, who would take me! If I go on business trips, I hope I have friends who are willing to pick me up and drop me off at the airport. :(

And now I SO BADLY need to do microeconomics studying. AND read the marketing cases. I can't believe how much work I have to do.

HEARTS TO EVERYONE I SAW THIS FABULOUS WEEKEND! I cannot wait to go home for Thanksgiving :):)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Visiting UCSD

It's so bizarre to visit UCSDers in their new apartments. Everyone has moved off campus and since I have absolutely no sense of direction, whenever we drive around I'm hopelessly lost. I can't believe how far everything is. OR how nice EVERY apartment is, and how much parking there is. It's INSANE. SD is kind of a place that I would like to live in when I'm older, but I don't really want to live so close to a college. But I love all the condos!

While I enjoy being the person who "brings together everyone" I can't believe how rarely everyone sees one another! But at the same time, I have yet to actually meet up with Jackie since school started, so I should not be talking. Sometimes when TMV hang out, it feels like nothing has changed at all. But sometimes I hear about things and can't believe how much some of us have changed. I wonder how I have changed since high school. I hope it is for the better.

When we are driving from house to house, it felt as if we all lived in the same city, but not with our parents. As if we had magically decided to all live in the same place after graduating. Everyone's residence is pretty similar to what I would have imagined for them. Danny lives in a very nice apartment that is not very furnished. I would like to live in a place like that - it's two story with a loft! Although I would only need one bedroom in the future and not three. His bathroom is super nice. Today Connie L saw a bag of calcium chews and was like "WTF DANNY WHY DO YOU HAVE THESE? Do you know these are for menopausal women?" and Danny was like "they're GOOD" :D

Connie Y's room is very similar feeling to her Arcadia room, because it is very cozy and cute. We talked there for a long time last night. The boys went downstairs to smoke and I felt like we were with stereotypical Asian gangsters. They were just standing around the street smoking. HAHA

Connie L's/Frances L's place is very similar to how Connie's old place was. Very uniquely decorated. Whenever I come, I always want a cat but I know that I am really a dog person. I mainly hung out with Frances L today, which was fun. ALTHOUGH I was supposed to study SIGH SIGH

What have we done? Hmm... Danny drove me down yesterday. SO FUN I love riding in his car ... or really any car where the driver goes fast and I feel safe enough to not feel like I will die. He sang for most of the ride. My favorite parts of life are when I just look out the window, and I especially love seeing the ocean when driving towards SD. We ate at ... a Korean restaurant yesterday and then went to this crazy dessert place in the gay area of SD. Who knew there was such a place?

Alvin: I bet that biker's gay
Me: Because he's riding off the seat?
Alvin: Yeah and because his jeans were tight

Yesterday was another big gathering day, which was very nice. :)

Today the main gathering we had was going to eat at a Japanese restaurant and then playing mini golf at Boomers. FUN FUN FUN Now we are playing Scattegories and Pictionary. And we STILL HAVE TOMORROW, the REAL veteran's day, to play!

I feel "very blessed" (I just read an interview by Lindsay Lohan, which is why that phrase is floating around my head) to have friends who seem so excited when I come down :) AWW to everyone!

I downloaded more Benji Hughes songs and I am surprised that I like them. None of them sound remotely similar to "Waiting for an Invitation" which I am STILL looking for. But I like one song and I didn't notice until today that some of the lyrics of "You Stood Me Up" go "Hundred million ways to break a heart, that's one you taught me" which is kind of cool I guess

OMFG IT'S 1:41?! I HAVEN'T DONE SHIT TODAY. I think I just blew any possibility of getting A's in my classes

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Veteran's Day Weekend


I've reached the second day of "eat as much as you can without feeling guilty" time. After years and years of staring at myself in the mirror before and after meals, I've realized that I can gorge on food for about two days without exercising, but still wake up looking surprisingly normal. But on the THIRD DAY ... that's when things get CRAZY LARGE! Hopefully I'll be able to do something more active later today, when I'm in SAN DIEGO! (although Danny "threatened" to take me to some desserts galore place so maybe I will just continue riding this train to obesity)

This weekend was fun. My skin is all gross because it's very dry in LA though. Weird ass weather. It was grossly hot when Alvin and I were driving down from Berkeley. The nights are pretty cool though. And then it got very windy today. But hmm this weekend was fun! Once again a lot of people came together! Yesterday we were at Eric's at another BIG gathering. The day started off with just me and Eric and Marie Callendar's. I have to tell myself NO MORE VEGETABLE QUICHE and NO MORE SHARING HASH BROWNS with Eric because I don't love them THAT much. Next time I should just get a slice of banana creme pie.

Anyway, after that, we went to get his car washed HAHA which is sadly something we've done together before. I LOVE errands with friends! Frances C came to join us, and the former plan was for me to nap and Eric to go to school, but since Frances was with us, we all went to Pomona instead. It was SO FUN - I'm glad I didn't nap. Got to see how Eric lives. Seems like he socializes quite a bit. Maybe architecture ISN'T SO HARD AFTER ALL. Just kidding. Frances and I just talked while he cut styrofoam. We're pretty sure a guy sitting across from us heard the entire conversation. Oh well. I don't think I have spoken to her for a long time about things so :)

We also ate apples that I had brought from home. Eric's place is NICE. Everything looks great compared to Berkeley living places. Then we were deciding where to eat for dinner and the default is always Ichima. HAHA Soupie for high school, Ichima for college, WHERE will eat AFTER college? While I was calling Owen to ideas, we were like "let's just go to Ichima" but once Owen wanted Ichima I heard Eric and Frances go "ummm never mind..." HAHA Then we got stuck in major traffic, during which we kept trying to think of places to go to. It would keep rebounding back to Ichima, and then towards the end when we were REALLY hungry we were like IN N OUT. But INSTEADDDDD

We COOKED! We picked up Henry and went to 99 ranch to get food. :) We had a $17 grocery bill that fed five people and could have fed about seven. So much leftover meat. HAHA And Eric and Henry were super awesome and bought CREAM PUFFS while Frances and I were stuck talking to a mutual family friend. HAHA SOO embarassing: they were like "do you two have boyfriends?" and we were both like "NO NO no boyfriends" RIGHT when we rounded the corner and there was Eric and Henry sitting and waiting for us with the groceries. HAHA

As anyone would expect, Henry ended up doing most of the cooking. I was ready to pop open Eric's box of Captain Crunch cereal. AHHA Although I DID help shake WATER OFF THE SALAD~ We had chinese sausage (which I really wanted), cabbage, shao long baos, beef rib eye something, and delicious fried tofu. I ate about twice what I should have eaten. Over time, Owen, Danny, Alvin, and Will joined us. I had also wanted Mr. And Mrs. Smith which I had kind of wanted to watch ever since Angelina Jolie mentioned it in an interview. I kind of want to buy it now. HAHA I REALLY REALLY want to buy Wanted. I don't think I'll even wait for it to become $10 or whatever. I want it NOW

Owen was telling us a story and I loved how we had SOOO many tangents. Like making fun of him saying Shia Labeouf. I had to look the spelling up. But then once Danny came in, it would be like THE MOST FAR OFF tangents that made it really hard to bring the story back to Owen. HAHA Danny just left the group and went on Eric's computer and Connie L was like HE DOESNT DO THAT IN SD, prompting us to all whine "DANNY WHY DON'T YOU LIKE US DANNYYYY" :)

Danny bought ice cream for us :) but then as the movie ended people started heading back. I had woken up at 7 to go running, so I was INCREDIBLY tired. Got home at 1 and yay! Today I just sat around at home and ate my mom's cooking. We went to Trader Joe's and I got garlic hummus so she could try it. She always finds it necessary to get some sort of ice cream when she comes home. It is like when I buy desserts with friends because eating sweets with others makes me feel less guilty. HAHA Well I have to pack for SD now. YAY! Although I should start studying for my midterm, I get to see MORE TMVers! :) Veteran's Day weekend is pretty fun

Another Xanga-like entry

"THIS DOESN'T FEEL GOOD"

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Profitable companies

One of my projects this semester is to write a report on a company looking at its financial trends. The professor recommended that we research a profitable company, since it's easier to write analysis about a profitable company. I just spent half an hour looking for one. I had to look for a list of companies with rising stock prices on Forbes to get ideas. Kind of sad. I settled with DirecTv. This project is dumb, in that we have to work in groups of four-six. The class itself is very anti-group work. It's ACCOUNTING. I have never spoken to anyone in my group once, since we decided to get in a group together. It could easily be written up by one person. I kind of want to just do it all myself and say "check over it please." But I should also concentrate on my actual work.

I finished my microeconomics homework and ... kind of answered all the questions. We shall see if any of them were answered correctly.

Wow, Forbes.com has a huge collection of lists. I'm looking at vainest and most sinful cities. SF is 2nd most sinful, SJ is first. I wouldn't have expected San Jose to be very sinful - my image of the place is just families. Surprisingly, LA is the 8th most vain city, not first. And SF is --- OK I MUST STOP. HOMEWORK TIME.

OH. I bought an awesome Cal jacket today. It's very athletic looking. I hope I can pull it off, and people don't think I'm a poser.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Elections are pretty awesome (when your side wins)


Ok, as much as I've started to dislike Berkeley these past few months, the walk back from Caroline's after election results were pretty damn awesome. There wasn't a minute of silence - there was always a car blasting its horn in support of Obama's win and cheers from the streets. :) I'm sitting in my apartment and the horns are continuing every time the light turns green. Things like this and excitement on game days make me really love this school (although maybe not the city as much).

This school also made me falsely believe that Prop 8 would sail through. I hope the No's start piling in tonight. Caroline got a call from her dad and he said that the Yeses were the majority and I could not believe it. This was right after finding out Obama had won, so it was kind of like happiness to disbelief. Sigh

I kind of missed the moment of "OBAMA WINS!" I was half doing microecon and half watching election results on MSNBC with Caroline and her apartmentmate. And then suddenly I look up and hear cheering and I was like "I wonder what just happened?" I thought a major state had won and all of us were like "I don't know" and then I looked at the scores and it said 283? or two eighty something and I was like OMG HE WON! and we rewinded it and rewatched it.

OMG Ok I hear Sproul Plaza is CRAZY right now and you can't even get onto Telegraph so Jon and I are going to head over. I can hear fireworks going off. What an awesome election to be a part of, especially in Berkeley. :) EEEKKKKKKKK!!!

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Just got back. I went with Jon and we called Paulo, Caroline, and Joe to join us. HAHA We went out too late to celebrate on Sproul Plaza but the Durant/Telegraph intersection was awesome. People were climbing the streetlights, people were popping off bottles of alcohol and spraying it all over the place, there would be random WHOOOOOs and chants, there was a really bizarre woman dancing the WEIRDEST DANCE (Paulo called it "getting stupid") on a newspaper stand, honking, people cheering on cars and buses that had the misfortune of being on Durant when the crowds came out, firecrackers going off, a mix of pizza and pot smells, cops going through the crowds saying "We just want to get to the police car! We're not trying to stop anything!" and people crowd surfing. Also, a girl who started the whole sitting on people's shoulders, who was wearing a backless shirt, prompting a group of guys to start yelling "TAKE IT OFF! SHOW YOUR TITS! BOOBS FOR OBAMA!"

It's 12am and I can still hear some commotion outside. Caroline said on her way up to Telegraph, they got into a parade that was going through Hearst, which led them to the Campanile where they sang the Star Spangled Banner, old school style. Finally after standing at the intersection, we all went to my apartment for some warmth, ate a TON of chocolate, and watched the news.

As fun as it was, it was a little scary at times. It makes me wonder how scary the 60s must have been, especially since the protesters did not have the support of the police at that time.

I have done SO LITTLE homework today. But today was a good day. (EXCEPT for prop 8)


I think that the only reason people weren't playing loud music is because NO ONE has boomboxes anymore. They've all been replaced by iPod speakers. The only way the night could have been better is if Cal Band had gotten together and played on the streets of Berkeley.

Election Day!

I voted today! Kind of weird - I don't pay very much attention to politics but while I was walking back from class, I was very antsy and just wanted to go and vote. When I got there, I had to wait in a line of five people. At first I was like "A LINE?!" When I got back home, I was reading some articles and it said some people waited like two hours in line. So that made me feel kind of foolish.

There MUST be a more technologically advanced way to vote. I think signing your name to check-in is kind of ... primitive.

Maybe four years ago, I wouldn't have expected myself to be voting today. Which makes me sound like a very ignorant and lazy American, which I probably am. I think watching the Daily Show makes me care more. HAHA And I was reading a blog where the blogger was like "I don't date people who don't vote" and I was like GASP. I think that might have been the main reason I registered, not because I necessarily want to date that person, but I think that statement has merit. I think a better idea for celebrity PSAs on voting would be if they all said "I don't date people who don't vote" and they had celebrity couples that were like "Do you vote?" "Of course!" and then they do something cute together. I think that would be far more effective than the fairly annoying "DON'T VOTE" ads that they made.

This might be one of the busiest weeks I will have this semester. I have a lot of homework that I didn't have time to do, since I was studying for my accounting midterm. And I also have to do all the homework for next week, since I'M GOING HOME! At the same time, I have little things to do, like Election Results tonight and eating at a restaurant that I have been planning to go to for some time. Also, I want to buy some Cal Gear. I went to the store in between classes and found a jacket I like. There are some sweatshirts I like, and I want at least one. There are too many cute t-shirts, so I'm just not going to buy any. I want a pair of sweatpants too. It'll probably cost me like $250 if I got everything I wanted.

I came here to turn off my music so I could study in quiet, and that was about 20 minutes ago. I guess that's what happens. In those twenty minutes, I've ended up blogging and eating four pieces of Trader Joe's peppermint cremes. Oh, self, how you disappoint me.


I like this song, but you have to skip past 24 seconds of talking. The guitar in the beginning sounds reminiscent of something, but I can't pinpoint it.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Two weeks of school left!

According to my fake calendar, which doesn't count the week of Veteran's Day, Thanksgiving, or the week before finals. I just took a midterm today in accounting. MUST. GET. A+. It sounds ridiculous but knowing that I might get bad grades in my other business courses makes it less ridiculous. I think I got one problem wrong though. Usually when I think that, I end up getting a ton wrong. And when I fret about little things I usually end up getting a good grade. X_X It's a curse. I've come to assume that if I think I did well, I actually did horribly, and if I think I bombed it, I came out better than expected.

I'm typing with gloves on right now. I just suddenly felt very cold. I think I was always cold but didn't notice while I was writing my paper. It's strange to type with gloves on. Kind of like feeling around in the dark.

I wanted a 4.0 this semester, but now I'll reassess. I want an A+ in accounting, an A in ESPM, an A- (maybe an A if I do magically well on the second midterm) for microecon, and anything that's above a B- for marketing. I kind of would like to hope for a B+ but that seems impossible. SIGH SIGH.

Robinson has made me REALLY HATE Haas. My love for Berkeley fell this summer, and then it slowly climbed back up a little after moving into the apartment. But after taking Haas classes, HATE AGAIN! WHY was I born in 1988? What a shit year. It seems like all the changes took place for our year, like the new SAT and whatever else it was that everyone complained about. I think it was the test all high school seniors had to take. AND I was talking to Chrystal about how I think I must be incredibly stupid to be struggling in some of my Haas classes when she said that they are making it harder so the school can be ranked higher. SIGH. WHY! They changed the curve so now 50% aren't getting A's, like they used to. :( Also, if I had been born in like 1986, I would not have to compete for jobs in a crappy economy.

Tomorrow is election day! I finally looked at the sample ballot. HAHA I'm a terrible voter. I really shouldn't have registered for Berkeley. I don't really care about any of the city measures because I won't be living here in a year anyway. I also did not realize how racist/homophobic my parents are. My mom doesn't make very many racist comments and my dad just doesn't really talk at all. I guess because of the people I'm surrounded by, I'm under the impression that EVERYONE is clearly going to vote no on 8 or for Obama, at least in California. Apparently my parents are both voting yes on 8, and my mom was like "I'm going to vote for McCain." I remember she liked Hilary more because she was more experienced, and she says that for McCain as well. There was a great long pause between my going "Why? Because Obama's black?" and her response of "why would you say that? ... McCain just has ... more experience." Oh well. Her vote for McCain won't make much of an impact.

Someone just rang my buzzer. It turned out to be my landlord. I wish there were a way to see through the door without opening it. One day I'm going to accidentally let a murderer into my apartment.

I should do homework now. Should I do easier, less important classes, or harder, more important classes? OR SHOULD I PLAY TETRIS?