My new love

I really should be sleeping. I'm really tired and sometimes I feel like my brain is dying. I really should sleep. But I feel like I rarely blog now and don't you all want to know about my life?! Or has everyone forgotten I exist? HAHA. Anyway...

There's about three weeks left of learning, and about 5 weeks until the last final. Which means only FIVE WEEKS TO FIND a place to LIVE. Every day in class, I think about how I want to furnish my apartment. The apartment in my mind is the one I really really want to get and I will probably get, barring any complications. But all of that will be another entry, because I'd just be rambling in my state.

But my new love ...

CRAIGSLIST. and not JUST craiglist but specifically, FREE STUFF from craiglist! Check it:

I just refresh this every time I open my web browser and it's all the free stuff people want to give away. My god, I wish I had the truck/storage space for this. In particular, the ad that has gotten me all excited is this one.


LOOK AT THE TABLE! It looks so new! I bet it's from IKEA. THE BOOKCASE! I really want that bookcase for my future apartment! And external hard drives?!?! I need an external hard drive!

Things for my new apartment that I would like to get free:

- A desk
- A wheelie chair (otherwise I will buy an exercise ball)
- A dresser
- A night table
- A futon and its frame
- A coffee table
- A bookcase

The sun is gone! Yay

Before you start reading, pause whatever music you have and just hit play here. Don't watch it though, there's no one pretty.



Yay! According to msn, I will have the #4 best job to have after college. The #1 is consulting, which I might do after a few years of accounting/auditing, since I hear that is what most people do. I just need to go through two years of school :(

I am torn between really wanting school to end and not wanting it to end. I thought we had four weeks of school two weeks ago, but starting THIS monday, we have four weeks of school. So in my mind, school's like twice as long now. I really hate economics, especially now that I don't get it all. I guess econ1 knowledge only takes you up to the 11th week of UGBA101b. I kind of wish I had gone to my GSI office hours, but I still don't know when they are and I don't care anymore now. I just want school to be over now so I can get my B in the class and move on. I don't feel like doing work for any of my other classes, but they are all very fun classes so it's not that painful.

On the other hand, I don't ever want the year to end. I can't believe we ONLY have FOUR weeks of school left because OMG I freaking love living with my floormates. Part of me is like "we should live with all of our friends FOREVER. Just buy a giant apartment complex!" There's still so much to do - we've had plans to go to all these different places around the Bay Area for the past three months but every day, we end up hanging out in room 306 and the study lounge and it's enough for us. And unlike high school with TMV when we went out to eat a lot, most of what we do is sitting around in someone's room so I never bring out my camera and there are not that many pictures of us. I will probably take like 500 pics when we go to Boat Dance (yay!) which is a semi-formal dance for people who live in residence halls, and it's on a ship out in the SF Bay. Should be AWWWWEEESOMEEE. And you know me, I really hate dances. I'm so happy that my floormates kept pushing me to go - I probably wouldn't have gone if Caroline didn't decide to go, but I heart my floormates for immediately saying "OK NOW YOU HAVE TO GO" instead of being like "whatever we don't care if Melissa goes." :D

And then I have RCSA friends, two of whom are like some of my closest friends and they are GRADUATING. :( My life would have been very different if I had not met Li-Ting in the beginning of freshman year, and if I had not went to the SF trip and waited at the bus stop with Angelica.

Boo the wonderful overcastness of the morning is leaving. But it's supposed to be less warm today, so yay.

Anyway, what did I even want to write about? I got distracted with nail clipping. I feel like I just have all these blogs that are like "OMG THESE PEOPLE ARE GREAT" but they don't actually have any memories in them. I guess if I'm not going to write memories, I'll just write plans.

What I want to do in the summer:
I still need to finalize my apartment and call that landlord X__X Judging by how most of my life has turned out, I'll get the apartment and realize that I've been stressing out for nothing. I still need a third roomie and I'm trying to take Jon from our floor, although it'll be stealing him from his current roommates. HEHE time to work some charm. I feel like an employer trying to steal someone from a rival company. I totally have all these visions for the summer which in my mind, will be AWEESOMEEEE.

So I get the apartment, but the landlord has said he wanted to do revonations, so I will maybe live in Alvin's place since that is the most convenient. I will work all day, make tons of money, and then every other day, go the Media Resources Center and just watch a new movie every day. Seriously, that place is fun-fucking-tastic. I realize that was not even a word. But it's two floors below the ground level of Moffitt, and it's what looks like 10 HUGE bookshelves filled from top to bottom with dvds. The DVD collection is in that link. You "borrow" one and watch it in the room adjoined to it, which is like tons and tons of booths with its own dvd player and television with headphones.

Besides that, I'm going to spend the summer getting really fit - swim, run, and exercise classes EVERY day. I swear it.

Then I'll visit my Norcal floormates on the weekends. Who lives in Nor Cal: Eric, Christine, Jon, Paulo, Joe. I really really want TMV to visit me, hopefully after I move into my actual apartment. I'd also need to start buying furniture/appliances for the apartment (EXCITING! EXPENSIVE!) and it would be like a week of feasting/fun having. Then I have summer school, where I will hopefully make lots of new Haas friends.

I'm looking forward to this summer. :)

Cal Day

Cal Day 2006: I don't remember it at all. I don't think I really went to anything; I went to the Chancellor's reception at 8:30 in the morning and was thoroughly impressed with how large Haas Pavillion is. The rest of the day is a complete mystery; I only remember walking to Haas with my parents and taking pictures. And again, the only reason I remember it is because we took pictures.

Cal Day 2007: I sat in my room for a large part of the day because I was getting ready for the astro final. It was an overcast day, a fact I only remember because my floormates brought it up. I was very removed from it, and I wouldn't have even known that it was going on.

Cal Day 2008: omg. I have sacrificed my skin for RCSA. I am so much darker now; all because of 2pm-4pm. >:O The shade left but I was like AGHHH I MUST SELL THESE MUGS so I stood there anyway. But I think being a student during Cal Day is more fun than being a prospective freshman on Cal Day. When you're a student, you go around Cal Day because you have friends (otherwise you'd stay in your room, see above). You know what most of the organizations are, you have no shame in going around just getting free stuff, you can pick up all of the rally songs. You can also use your mealpoints and buy whatever you want without thinking about money. When you're tired, you walk back to the dorm and just hang out with you friends more. But being a prospective freshman, you're basically left with your parents, no one knows where anything is, there's too much going on, and it's exciting and a good experience, but not super duper fun.

Well today, I woke up at 7:15. I hosted a person who was really cool; I had actually spoken to her at interviews and remembered her very well so I think that's why she wanted to be my hostee. Then I had to get stuff moved to Sproul at 8am. And every hour after that, I was expecting it to be really late, only to find out that only 20 minutes had passed. But Cal Day was still super fun. I finally sold those god damn bear bottoms that have been in my room forever. I sold about 24 mugs, and now I only have one box of them left (YES!). I think the RCSA account is going to be pretty high now, so I am super happy. Once I order graduation stoles, set up a time for people to pick up their stuff last-minute, then I am DONE DONE DONE with RCSA for this semester! YAYYYY

I came home, immediately took a shower because that was probably the worst I've ever smelled in my life. I spent about 15 minutes counting the money - I have in my possession $1570 in PURE CASH which is INSANE. I could buy a car with that money. Anyway, then I watched some HIMYM with Caroline (YESSS we have gotten past the duller episodes of season 1. It's always really painful for me to watch them because I tell everyone "THIS IS THE BEST SHOW EVERRRR" and when they watch the first ten episodes I'm always like "it gets better I swear"). Then I ate dinner with some floormates (Sushi House, which I now no longer like. I seriously think nothing can compare to Ichima, and it's like the measuring stick for all sushi places now, and so far, every place has FAILED). Watched more HIMYM - I believe we might have watched a total of twelve episodes. HAHA. I did not go to a party so I could watch HIMYM. Terrible. But my excuse was that I was too fat to go out wearing what I wanted to wear.

So I'm happy for now. Except for the fact that Berkeley IS INSANELY HOT RIGHT NOW. OMFG. I hate it when the sun comes out. There's no smog layer like there is in LA, so the sun is particularly direct and painful. SOOO HOT. I don't know how to turn off the heater to this room so it's even worse. Also, I have not done any work in a very long time, and I am torn between giving up on Econ, coasting, and getting a B, or working very hard and trying to get an A- and not feel terrible about myself. Who knows.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of: working a lot of hours every week, super dieting to get ready for Boat Dance, getting all my hw done early, anddd I don't even know. Ok.

I don't blog very much. I don't even remember what I used to blog about. Hmm.

Trader Joe's organic strawberry fruit spread is very good. My new food obsession is peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and also a "sandwich" consisting of one slice of bread, a slice of muenster cheese, and a slice of turkey breast, eaten like a giant cheese/cracker.

.5(20) Reasons my life is a little sad

1. I'm pretty sure I once brought a pair of scissors to high school for the sole purpose of cutting my split ends during yearbook

2. I own two notebooks where I wrote down everything I ate from 3/22-8/19 and then 8/20-11/27. Apparently on my birthday of 2007 I had: cereal, banana, clif bar, salmon, salad, bread. I also went on the elliptical for 30 minutes and did the rowing machine for 10 minutes. On Frances Lo's birthday I apparently had blueberry bread, green tea ice yogurt, zucchini date bread (these are all from Trader Joe's, I can tell), a chicken skewer, grapes, and salad. I have no idea where I got a chicken skewer from. I apparently went on the treadmill for 35 minutes and ran 2.5 miles and did the rowing machine for 10 minutes.

3. I've never kissed anyone

4. I felt tired while running to the bus stop with two Trader Joe's grocery bags. I spent about 30 seconds sitting on the bus trying not to make it obvious that I was catching my breath

5. When I'm interviewed and they ask "tell me about yourself," I really have nothing else to say besides "I'm a second-year at UC Berkeley and I'm a business major. I like to watch tv and go to the gym."

6. I probably read 1/6 of the books that I check out from the library

7. There have been several days when I ate yogurt parfaits for all three meals. One from Bear Market for breakfast, one I made myself for lunch, and one from GBC for dinner.

8. I got more homework done in one sitting yesterday while watching the wushu competition with Danny at Haas Pavillion than I have for the past three weeks.

9. My idea of getting ready to go out is deciding whether or not to tie my hair, and then putting lotion on my face and hands.

10. I have to put eyedrops in my eyes at least five times a day, and that's when I'm not wearing contacts.

I can't think of that many sad things so I will multiply this by .5 so I can still use the label 20 things. I guess it's a good thing that I don't have many sad things. I'm actually not sad by the way! I'm very content with life.

Things I love

There's a lot on my mind and at first I was like "I bet this is a lot of stress because of school" but honestly I think I'm just faking myself out because when I look at the list of everything I have to do, most if it can't be done just yet. So like today, I kept thinking OMG I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO and I felt very guilty for speaking to my floormates for two hours after I got home. But when I went to my room I was like ... ok work time ... but there's nothing to do that's assigned tomorrow.

So I figured out why my mind is just racing. Because I'm ACTUALLY very happy but I'm mistaking it for stress. And I'm stressing out because I need to make a LIST and I just keep making lists of things to do, when that's not the right list I should be making! Does that make sense? I think so.

So list time: things I love

- My floormates and how I can just knock on the door and go in and talk to them for hours and hours about the randomest things. And how I feel like I've known them for so long even though I started talking to them in mid-December and it was only for two weeks before we went on winter break and when we came back we all loved each other. Seriously, how is it that living with people makes you so much closer? I wonder if I would have been friends with them if I hadn't lived with them. Probably not because we aren't that similar and I would have been too shy to talk to some of them.

- TMV obviously and I still can't believe that I can go to school and rarely talk to most of them but come back for spring break and know that I can go out and hang out with them within a few hours of landing in Arcadia. And how despite being with each other for hours and hours when we are home, we still have amazingly a lot to talk about and relatively very little drama and I really think we will all be lifelong friends and I will be very sad when we graduate because we won't be coming home as often.

- TMV's taste in music because when I'm at school I don't know what is going on in popular radio at all, but when I come home, Danny and Will seem to always know what's up with the current music trends and I come back to Berkeley and update my iPod. Damn you Kanye West, you are oddly fun to listen to.

- Overcast weather in Berkeley! It's ridiculously cold sometimes but YES! I can wear long sleeve sweaters for a little while longer and I can start working out hardcore so when summer sun really does roll around, I won't have a muffintop.

- RCSA and having the opportunity to talk to prospective freshmen about the school. I can't believe how much more social I have become in regards to speaking to strangers. I remember a lot of adults in high school would say "I used to be very shy but after college I came out of my shell" and I was afraid it wouldn't happen to me, but I think it did. So yay! I just need to be even MORE outgoing and make the first move to people in class, which I am sometimes still apprenhensive about

- RCSA friends and how I somehow became very close to a few people and I still have no idea how. I was like a little freshmen and all my close RCSA friends are older. I wish I had made a very close freshman friend through RCSA so it would have been like reciprocating but it hasn't happened just yet. Maybe next year.

- Getting into Haas and feeling a lot more secure about my future. At the same time, I'm kind of freaking out sometimes because it's a little scary to realize just how planned out my life really was. I mean, I said last year that if I were to get into Haas I wouldn't be coming home for summer ever again and now that I'm in Haas ... I can't believe I'm actually on that road. It's like, getting into college was just a step onto a road that led to many, many roads. But getting into Haas is like getting onto that final road. Ok, that sounds very inflexible - I do plan to do something besides work for a Big4. But ... wow. I can map out my entire life for possibly the next decade. It's summer school/work this summer, Haas classes, find internship for next summer, more Haas classes, graduate, do something fun for the summer like travel or learn how to surf or if all else fails, just work more. Then ... work. Real actual income and not hourly wages work.

- Did I mention how much I love my floormates?

- How I Met Your Mother episodes and the genius that is Carter Bays and Craig Thomas. I think this is seriously my all-time favorite show, which is what I used to call Buffy, but Buffy had a lot of weak episodes (forgiven because of its 7-year run and 1-hr long episodes) whereas I feel like so many of HIMYM episodes are FLAWLESS. Seriously, www.tedmosbyisajerk.com, the Slap Bet and The Pineapple Incident episodes are some of the greatest things ever. The continuity in this show is mindblowing. And the cliffhangers! I wish this show could go on forever. But that we can find out who the mother is in two-three seasons and after that it's seeing their relationship. Because, AWESOME. I've listened to the song Ted Mosby Is A Jerk 3times through already, and when you can listen to a 20minute song 3 times through in a single day, I think that shows how much you love something.

- Direct Deposits and working. Wow, I'm so happy to finally get paychecks again. I don't ever want to stop working. It's so awesome that I spent about $150 in a week for spring break, but THAT'S OK because today I looked at my bank account and I have $134 added in! Direct Deposit is magic. I don't even know how to deposit checks in person.

- Asking Steven to room with me and now I feel like he really is the person I would want to room with most. I love my floormates and I think we're good floormates but when I think about it, maybe we wouldn't have made great apartment mates. But Steven is so nice! I've noticed that when I need to make a decision, the best decision is usually the first thing I want to do, but because I'm me, I always try to find other options and go into too much trouble, just to find out that my first option was best. But it makes that final decision a lot more satisfying

- Having use of my knees. I don't know why, but everytime I exercise now, I think to myself "one day you'll be too old to do this!"